Open My Eyes

At times it seems I'm so distant

I reflect, but then in an instance

I retract

I'm never going back

To the way I was before

Life's such a chore

But I'm standing tall

And I recall

Things I felt had made a difference

Insistent

That a purpose had been served

But I deserved

Something more than I got

Stop the clock develop plot

Then out the door

Everything becomes metaphor

I implore you

Take a rest from the stress

I digress

Some of you may feel blessed

But all a lie

I don't know why

I try

To keep faith

So that I feel safe

Yet I see it slip away

Another day

I lose my mind

I find that I can't let go

And I always show

In the way I stroll

That's just how it goes

Rinse repeat

Then delete the program

I'm caught in

Not Forgotten

Can't believe I almost bought

Into you, Thought true

Now feeling used

Yet I've long since forgiven

Started living

The cycle begins

I lose my grin

And the loop starts up

What the f***?!

I can't believe this s***

I'm done with it

To be punished

For nothing more than guiding

Providing
A helping hand and heart

Now depart

My old life now in tatters

Nothing mattered

I'm bruised and battered

I bleed within

Begin to find sin

Disown all my "friends"

The lies

I tried to justify 

Actions of all

But they kept dropping the ball

All the while just smiling

And stabbing me in my front

And so bluntly

I'm attacked

It all comes back

How can I decide

To enjoy this ride

Open my eyes

Unveil from disguise

Keep your promise to me

Set me free

Or let me be

I've held up my end

Now it's time to step forward

I'm waiting...

Reviews

[Sarah Hampton]

I admire the restraint you used in each line while still expressing each thought/implication thoroughly. I especially liked the line: 'Stop the clock develop plot' The whole thing has relate-able moments.