Helping Hand

I extend a hand of gratitude
Yet, I question why
Is this what we become
When we follow in your word

You ask, I follow blindly
I let you take the lead
To use me as a vessel
To come into my heart

Now it seems you've gone away
That you're ignoring me
Was it all based on false promise
I had allowed you in

If this becomes the end result
What purpose shall be served
It feels as if mere trickery
And everything, a lie

To help, to love, deliverance
And what was the reward
Misery turns its ugly head
I now stand alone

A testing of my faith, I think
So I keep moving forward
Then punishment happens once again
As my patience slowly fades

From the truth that I have given
Now, unto myself
No good has come to me
Was everything in vain

Sacrifice, to save another
And they're taken away
More and more, I watch each one
Disappear from me

Was I wrong to give of my heart
Should I just stand there quietly
I won't ignore someone in need
That's just who I am

"Extend a helping hand", I'm told
For it is a good deed
I don't do it, because of this
Instinct just steps in

I like the warmth I feel inside
And that keeps me fulfilled
I helped lift another up
I pulled them from their darkness

And this is how you treat me
Should I give up on you
I'll always keep on helping
Do not punish me for that

I care, because they're hurting
And they need a way out
I pulled myself out of the depth
I'll teach them to do it too

The horrors I've been given
Helped me to build strength
Never giving up
I'm still standing here

All the years of torment
Conquered and now dead
I've adapted and I've risen
And kept, the wisdom from the past

There was no one there for me
I had to do it on my own
A lesson learned, a lesson taught
A helping hand to serve a purpose

That's what I've become
A teacher, in a way
So no others must go through this
So that they may find peace

Too many I see, broken
And I place the blame on you
Extend a helping hand
Keep the promise that you made

I will not give up, fighting
For any soul that "needs"
But to punish, seems so petty
You're contradicting of yourself

So stand aside, as I live my life
We'll go our separate ways
You had a chance, and you deceived me
You've broken of my trust

Come to me and use me
And then you walk away
That's abuse, that is neglect
The very things I fight against

I have shown of my worth
This heart, I won't deny
All it takes is just one person
I build a better world

Kindness should be paid in kind
From one person to the next
A helping hand is kindness
Now the one in need is me