I am not option B

I invested so much time in you
Gone to waste, that's how it seems
Yet I'm the one who misses you
You won't even contact me

Was our relationship a lie
Just to use me for what you needed
You left without saying a word
But told everyone else goodbye

Did you no want to share that moment
Holding hope that we would meet again
Or was I never important
And had outlived my usefulness for you

I saw inside you, beauty
Was I making myself a fool
We're you just pulling my strings
So you could get what no one else would give

I want to take the latter
To say that being close to you was right
But now I've had mixed emotions
Since the day that you took leave

I didn't have to take you in
I could have ignored you like the rest
You came to me when they were saying
"We wouldn't notice if you weren't here"

Did I make a mistake and being with you
Only destroy who I thought I was
Or did knowing you help me
Become who I now am

Did it even matter if I'd talk to you
In the end would you still have done the same
I was just there for you and that moment
Did you ever care for me

You're the one who walked through my door
The place I'd been so many years
This was my life, now it feels broken
I'm not sure if that's good or bad

How dare you never contact me
I don't care if we'd both hurt
But you never gave to me an option
That's why I'm sitting here this way

I guess I'm seeking closure
You never gave me my goodbye
I am your first, you're last, your only
I am not option B

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[Tinotenda Nyevedzanai]

This really spoke to me, I feel what the author is going through it is described perfectly, beautiful flow i really enjoyed this even if it did pull at my sappy heart strings!