Justification

Do I destroy everything I've made 
So they can't take it away from me 
Do I let them push me out 
Win, and walk away so silently 

Events in question, just like a whirlwind 
Spiraling out of control 
Those who are lost and now forgotten 
But not to me, that's how I'm whole 

I remember all that happened 
Yet they lie to me 
You cannot manipulate my mind 
I've photographic memory 

Everything that has been done 
It doesn't bother them one bit 
Void of conscience and of morals 
They tell me to go away, to quit 

Forget I should of those events 
Behind a door and close it tight 
Yet I recall each and every moment 
Whether in day or when at night 

I know all, for I have seen things 
True horrors of which they do not know 
Ever pampered and elated 
How could they relate to me 

They have not seen what I have seen 
Or been through what I have to live 
So go about with your discrimination 
Because you acting, all, like kids 

Offensive, yes are many 
For they have never seen the true 
Look at me and they scream PARANOID 
But I know me, and I'm not you 

Put me into question 
Try to justify yourself 
I am secure of this, my true face 
Yet your greed wants something else 

Affirmation is unsettling 
For myself, I never seek 
But for you, it's how you're driven 
And alas, I'm not that weak 

My mind is a blessing 
My heart is intertwined 
I know who I am, it's called self-confidence 
Go find your own, and I'll keep mine 

Tear down one another 
So petty is your heart 
Before you point a finger 
Look in a mirror, that's where to start 

So little you think of yourself 
Thus you must tear another down 
Only you will be left standing 
With noone else around 

But you will build them to be stronger 
As I am now living proof 
I shall take all my years with me 
I shall leave the scraps for you 

So fight amongst yourselves like dogs 
Wolf in sheep's clothing, I declare 
Kill each other, just to have nothing 
At this point, I just don't care 

Always be second rate versions 
Never have what once was mine 
Get your priorities in order 
I have a life, don't waste my time 

Why should I endure the horror 
When simply I could be set free 
But alas, I can't, it's in my nature 
It's justification just for me