I'm Scared

Am I proving that you don't exist 
Or am I proving you are real 
Keep faith I'm told, keep faith inside 
Yet I think I've had my fill 

My heart is hurting, broken now 
How much more can I take 
If there's a soul, mine's slowly dying 
And this doubting, I can't shake 

I speak inspiration without trying 
As well as words written by my hand 
In truth, I'm trapped inside of misery 
This feels like torture with no end 

People come to me for wisdom 
Always guidance do they seek 
But do not care that all their sponging 
Has me drained and feeling weak 

I want to tell them all to go away 
To solve their problems on their own 
Yet to do that will hurt me more so 
And leave me all alone 

I'm scared that you don't care about me 
Dare you blame the way I feel 
Broken spirit, mind and heart 
That forever shall not heal 

I want to know you love me 
I want to know if you care 
Exist not in a book, but in real life 
To know that you are really there 

Still you will not answer me 
Am I just talking to myself 
If that's the truth, I'm moving on 
And will find faith in something else