The Love Letter I Never Sent

A Poem by Pope

Everyday I wake up
& my mood is dependent on whether or not I can convince myself that you would ever give me the second chance,
We both know I don’t deserve.
You’re not the one that got away, you were the only one smart enough to escape.
Sometimes I wrangle with the idea of checking on your wellbeing.
It would break me if the one person who could make me feel whole, came back.

Once, I had this dream,
I know it’s cliche but bare with me.
I was on a beach,
Just staring off into my memories.
A sudden gravitational tingle of inclination was enticing me to look away from the scenery.
As I turned, the momentum grew more attractive.
Glaring with anticipation, I recognized a familiar aura way off in the distance.
The strut carried a confidence with every step,
And with it closing in on me, there was this flirtatious smile I knew all too well.
It was you,
Looking absolutely amazing.
I mean you still look phenomenal, but you get the point.
I actually grew jealous,
Jealous of the sun's kisses on every spot on that body that I thought only I knew.
Tasting my heartbeat in my ears I managed to keep my composure,
Reciprocating to this moment that grin you once forced me to appreciate.
We were happy,
Not to see each other, but with the blatant growth made in the absence of one another.
As you finally crossed the path in front of me,
The touch of your hand across my abdomen had reignited the flames in my heart I haven’t felt since..?..
Damn, it’s been so long.
I followed the trail your touch left on my body as if it was a map to an undisclosed location,
Because you knew, even in that moment, I would follow you anywhere.
I wanted just this moment right here to last forever...
My sight wasn’t quick enough,
Despite my wants,
The oceans breeze blew it all away just as quickly as you left your impact.
And as I looked up,
To finally utter the words to you that I haven’t been able to say for years,
You were gone too.