Mind

My name, is Adande Xegora. That is pronounced with an “Sa-” sound, by the way. I'm a guy, I'm about 5’9, black frizzy hair, carmel colored skin, and defaulted brown eyes. I rock a sock cap with the hair out the front…
Heheh, look at me, trailing off about my appearance… Talking to myself
Wish this was a laid back story, too bad it's not.

I’ve been messed up for awhile. As long as I can remember, and that's not long. I’ve started talking to myself and subconsciously walking around.
It started off more rare than common. Whatever.
I'm not crazy. I know I'm not crazy. I even slapped my therapist because he called me crazy. The fact he called me crazy, someone that's supposed to help you…
Am I not good enough!? I'm crazy cause I'm different? I am so done with this s**t!
First mom, my Alcoholic father, and my ADHD f*****g everything!
I'm not crazy…!
Whatever. I’ll just slip into my virtual reality.

Anyway,
there’s something that takes control.
Something that feels dirty, evil. It's not so bad, it actually feels pretty… Good. When I got mad, or someone ticked me off, I'd let it take control and slip into a different reality… It was nice, no worries no distractions. Well, until it spoke to me.


"Hi Buddy."


It was about 9:37 P.M. and I was
playing my game,
so of course I tried to ignore it, but it was persistent.


"Aw, thought we were friends. I mean, you've let me take over so many times."


I was not, having this s**t. I was up on my feet in a second.

"I’m not in the mood for games!”

Just then, I get pushed from behind! I hit my head on the wall hard as I came down. I can't tell past from present. My words sometimes are jumbled.

I try to move my arms, no effect. Not many people know how scary it is to not have any control over your body when you try to move. For the ones that do, commendation is in order, but I can't do anything but look around and talk. Scariest part… No one is behind me.

“Hahah! What a silly cluts I am! I fell on my own! Silly goose! Now I've gone and paralyzed myself! I must be insane! Well, hahah! I guess I am insane! I'm talking to myself! No! Wait, I must not be insane! Cause I feel great! Though I'm paralyzed, I feel great! Insanity if this, is great! Hahah! I mean, wait… What do I mean!?”

I start to cry, this is killing me! I can taste blood, and am hungry for more… I see death and he has a conversation with me. I see the devil and he just smiles at me… I saw a light, it’s so far away, but it's crying for me.
Reality is dawning and I lay in a pool of tears, when I hear the voices again.

”Guess who's going insane now! Heheh! Sorry mate, but you'll have to do better than this! Oh by the way! By the way! I should probably let you go!”

Say chanting words he starts to. It's so hard to think and talking right takes so much effort now… There's a sudden jolt in me when whatever “It” is says,

“Helix Letrap!”

I can move again! I feel nothing but confusion and ignorance as I pick myself up. I head for my corner, because I can't handle this right now, as “It” says,

“Sayonara, Adasta”

Takes me a couple of hours to actually fall asleep… What did I just witness?

V: 1 - A:0.

I know now.
I told the truth…
I'm not crazy…
I'm f*****g insane.

Author's Note

Newest version of Chapter one.

Reviews

[Unknown Known]

These four chapters also need a "book setup". As in I should edit them to make them look like pages in a book

[Unknown Known]

Over 400 Views on the first Chapter guys and gals!? Thank you so much! That's a lot of views! Just to let you all know, I am still hard at work on the fifth chapter. It's something, I feel, you all will enjoy! So please be patient! Thank you all!

[Jeremiah N. Tarvin]

im upping my rating for the edited version. i like that the description of the main character is here now!

[Unknown Known]

I was hoping you'd like it. The edited second Chapter should be here by Tonight, but If you'd like, I have a "sneak peek" ready.

[Jeremiah N. Tarvin]

sounds fantastic!!! i cant wait to see more of adande and avery

[Jeremiah N. Tarvin]

also i sent you more fanart from Melody. and who is it you know that is following her on deviantart??? like what is your friend's username?

[FlatLineBeauty]

This is going to be an interesting read. Helix that name sounds so familiar. I have always loved that name. xo Karma

[Unknown Known]

Thank you all for all the support on my Book! I love ya all! Stay Sane!

[SquinklaPsyOps]

Masterfully constructed!! Your structure and flow are exceptional, along with your interesting developed story line.

[Unknown Known]

Thank you Madam.