Understudy

Just thoughts that rhyme

Days blending
Ending in a blur
I don't know how many more
Is worth it for her
She has no love or hope for her mind
Any one who Is anyone leaves her behind
She doesn't travel her journey with company
Accompanied by the illness that penetrates her mind
Leaving her in a state making her feel deaf and blind
To everything that surrounds her and takes over her kind
The demons inside they scratch and pry
Is she even worth the space of a life
The plasma state my brain is in.
It makes me feel like I will never win
Never please another sole
Feeling incomplete and never whole
Asking for help you get told your a liar.
I don't think you get I feel I am am daily under fire
From the unseen pressures and pasts of life
I live in agony pain and strife.
I want to be happy I really do
I just can't picture a place where that's true
I don't see a tomorrow a next week month or year
All that I ever seem to hear is that negative voice in my head saying you don't belong here.