My Everlasting Demon

This poem is one of my most recently written ones. The words are clear and raw, straight from my heart.

You pasted my life together when it seemed to be crumbling down.

You stood up for me when the rest of the world was sitting down,

still at safety.

Yet I lie awake lacking thought, lacking emotion.

I try to feel.

Emptiness.

How can you go from being my everything,

my world,

to being just a figment of my memory?

I desperately attempt to lose grasp holding the everlasting inevitable.

My scars represent the past

The memories, the lies, the pain.

When my scars disappear,

along goes the past.

You were my inspiration.

Now you have become my inner demon.

The thought of you drives

my every last will

straight into hell.

I must not let go of reality.

I must not let my monster control me.

I am in control.

I yearn to feel again.

I long to feel.

Horrific agony of the past would be more preferable

than my current state of numbness.

My demon has won another battle.

Author's Note

Please let me know what you think :)

Reviews

[☯]

The darkness and hope in this poem was pinpointed exactly. I liked how the words flowed and how everything was stitched together. I especially liked the last stanza:
"My demon has won another battle."
Throughout the poem I could feel the emotions and thoughts register as if it were mine. It's perfectly written, and I enjoyed reading it a lot. Keep it up butterfly :D

[soliloquy]

There's power in those words my new friend.....a very haunting, horrible situation for a person to be in no doubt.

I kind of like the way it ends...its sad as hell....but it works really well.

[PolaroidRaid]

Thank you so much:)

[soliloquy]

you are welcome!