I Choose To Be

To persevere and thrive being who you are. Even when posed against those who love you most. There's always a time to stand even in the midst of family.

I Choose To Be

 

 

Emotions swell inside,

the feeling of discomfort that I can't shake.

 

The constant shadow that is attached at my feet,

the constant thoughts that barricade many walls that I cannot break down.

Feeling forever enveloped and foreclosed in them.

 

Just when you begin to see some silver lining,

another light is disclosed.

Thus, I find myself back into this never-ending fall.

 

People in my life continue to dictate to me,

try to talk ridiculous mumble,

then they become my nightmare.

 

Ones I have to escape and fight to keep my mind sane.

Constantly being bombarded with a lot of meaningless shamble,

seeing them get angry because I won't open up.

 

Their constant drama's they try drowning you in,

as I try and keep my head above water,

just to have enough oxygen and allow me to keep fighting.

 

I am closed off because I choose to be.

I am detached because I choose to be.

I distance myself from the incompetent bickering,

because I choose to be.

 

The many controlling and nosey natures I see grin in many of your eyes,

in which I deliberately gaze elsewhere to remain oblivious,

because I choose to be...

 

Can you not see the many wrongs here?

This is my life.

 

My decisions.

My own walls.

My boundaries.

 

I will always offer my help in need,

and I will always be there for the many loved ones in my life.

But, the one thing I won't let them have,

are the pieces of me I am to live.

Not let those or others live it for me.

Author's Note

Everyone always needs a time to vent and poetry makes anger a pretty release.

Reviews

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This is a nice work. Great poem, Hailey :)