My Prayer

Just something I want a specific someone to see.

My life is over, no point trying to continue it sober
Drowning in a bottle as my body turns colder
I'd wish not to have this weight on my shoulders
But with my luck, I'd never find that four-leaf clover
So I count my numbered days before my body withers away
I won't leave a note, hell I wouldn't know what to say
Leaving the page blank along with the stone upon my grave
I've tried to reach out to that different dimension
That place Christianity forced into my head
Kneeled beside my bed, hoping an answered would be said
I've tried the phone lines
Dialed your number several times
But it's just quiet
It's always silent
If there is a God, I'm asking that you hear my prayer
I'm writing it down so I have it on paper
I ask that you shed light on my despair
Fix the thing that needs repairs
Lift me from the darkness I've been left in
Because all of this, it isn't fair
And if you choose to shove me aside, as you've done before
You best believe I'd end my life instantly
Just to personally show up at your door
To prove that my existence matters and that I shouldn't be ingored
So if you ever read the print I've written
And listened to my voice that clearly doesn't have a speech impediment
Fix this, because I'm still on my knees pleading
Begging for forgiveness...

Author's Note

I'm trying to figure out where I could submit my writings, so if you have a idea that would be wonderful. Also, I would love reviews so I could increase my knowledge and ideas. Tell me what you personally think.

Reviews

[Jamestown]

Awesome write, this hit me like a ton of bricks, I too have had a very difficult past 5 years
and by the grace of God, I'm talking with you. I beg of you not to lose faith, let God work,
life will not get easier, probably even tougher, the bible warns us of long suffering over 300 times in the
new testament alone, but what he brings us to, he brings us through.
Philippians 4:13, Isaiah 41:10, Romans 8:1 start there to get your head clear
I care and Jesus loves you, b-blessed and PTL!