Waves of regret

Waves Of Regrets
Current mood:  gloomy
Category: Life

The time passes by

I Think of all

the lost opportunities

Times to get out

See what love

The world had left

Sat and waited to

Feel the presence of

Hope in something

that wasn't  going to change

Just once thought to leave

An ounce a tiniest ounce

Of maybe a chance

For them to see

Who it is

That I really am

Maybe  just maybe

They would know all

The pain that was cause

Not justified not at all

But  all the forgiveness

Sparkle through to them

My own forgiveness

blinded my flight to safety

As the times of agony forgotten

Only to remember when life got hard

Or someone said something

Why!!! why are you that way

How can you think that

You don't understand

Everyone will see

How flaw you are

So be silent

Don't say a word

Will protect you

From the  horrid you are

A moments time

The energy that was saved

Spent gone no longer

Feeling the courage

To break free from the shame

Always feeling second best

Or the lowest of all

Of course they can't see

how bad it hurts

Nor will they ever

know the pain

Finnaly free

No more chains

Or fear to keep me there

Just regrets

When lift my head wondering

If only I had

Realize the pain they gave

Was not mine to received

Regret what about

Is it too late

To watch a sunrise

Or how much time was lost

Waiting on them

Just to notice maybe

To become enlighten

That I was just as  good

As al those around me

I didn't deserve fear

I wasn't trying to be hated

I only wanted to be love

Accepted for who I was

Waves of regret

How much did I lose

Waiting to be accepted

Or

At least treated like a human

How much did I  miss

While waiting just

To  not to be hated anymore

Waves of regrets

One day I may know all that I lost

Trying to show love to one who

Didn't believe I was

worth even existing

 Lynn Higgs  10/17/2008