Sharing my triggersA Poem by Lynn Higgspoem about someone who deliberating did things to trigger a PTSD episodeSharing my triggers Friends in disguise Sharing their pain Even if it was not true Believe it Wanted to offer comfort Just a trick Letting me know what you were going to do Sorry to disappoint Did not lose my mind I’m a survivor So I told you my triggers when you asked Thinking you would be conscientious and Seek not to set the swirl of emotional angst I experience from them You did the opposite Deliberating doing those things to Set the swirl of angst Even recruiting others in the game You played While you and others laugh As the shaken began I ran to hide the shaking Then you continue With gaslighting And including others Telling people things While telling me not to say anything Remain silent Realizing your actions were Manifestation of your pain Not wanting to cause more pain You continue Taking credit for Things you did not do Things I did Thought oh you Were just showing your own self-value While I went from one to another Trying to calm the storm You insisted on bringing up Dealing with the lies you told I found myself value Even more worthy than I thought Sat in my car crying screaming For moments of peace They came So I could face you again I did not go to anyone to tell As you said they were your friends And would protect you against anything I did not go as I did not want them to think badly of you Until you recruited them It did not work I’m still sane Still standing I overcame Those triggers you enacted Well they are not as intense now I learn my self worth To understand How I should be treated. So I guess in the end Should thank -you Not for the evil you portrayed But for the lessons I learn From overcoming the evil. © 2022 Lynn Higgs |
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Added on August 19, 2022 Last Updated on August 19, 2022 AuthorLynn HiggsSuwanee, GAAboutI am a single mother . I am attending college. I write poetry. more..Writing
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