I was Scared last Night

a poem about a nightmare

I was Scared Last Night

 

I thought I had escaped

here I was again

HeaDING IN A DIRECTION I WAS UNSURE OF

I was the driver

 what could possible happen

I was scared Last night

 disillusion I was in control

 taking my son to a better school

 surely it seem innocent  

just two going together 

 with my son in the back what could he do

I was scared last nite

 nothing nothing i was the driver

Just need him to find the way to go

 at least i thought he was helping to guide me

 but here at a stop sign

 he scooted closer

I  was scared last nite

AS the grab to hold me in place

how could he insist on this

not here not now with my son to witness

he grab my shoulder and whisper

come on you know you want it

I was scared last night

I pull away out of terror

 screaming  you liar

he held my wrist as i try to run

I was Scared last nite

No longer married to him

Not binded by his wants no more

 Struggling to get away

Jump out of the car only to hear

You'll never move from here with out me

I was Scared last nite

I stood on the sidewalk paralyze

unable to move only to listen

how I needed him to succeed  

 just needed to  realize 

 it was the way things are

I was scared last nite

Scream you liar it is not

 he continue to tell me

even after so much time

 still belong to him

and till i came back i would stay stuck

I was scared last nite 

where i am at

 Knew then it was better to be stuck

than to go back to that fear

constant feeling of  apprehension

being force into doing things i did not want

 for when he would come closer

Only to satisfied his need

I was scared last nite

finally with that i awoken

 by myself noone here but me

my heart still racing

i wonder would the fear

ever just go away

I was scared last nite

it may have been only a dream, a nightmare

however the fear felt real

 even after the sleep left my eyes

Laying in my bed trying to go to sleep

 let my dreams be pleasant

I was scared last nite

Now I'm awake

 Morning has taken care of

demons that entered my dreams

during the day i will forget it more and more

till the next night i will  relive the night mare

I was scared last night

                               Lynn Higgs

                              12/25/2007

 

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[TLK]

Why do you change between 'nite' and 'night'? Is there a meaning to this?