Angry

a poem telling someone why I am mad

Little man

you want to know why my anger

 is roaring again

 it never stop

 just leave me alone

 I don't need your kind of love

 I was not worthy of your attention

 only here to satisfied your needs

 and when i didn't want to

just push till i caved

 Why am i angry you say

 what a good guy like you

 How could you do anything wrong

 I must be quiet

 cause the love i felt

left a sediment

 if anything happens cause

i

 let

out

how you really are

 i would not forgive myself

 but anger yes i am angry

 not at you alone

 I take the blame

 after all i stood

and let it happen

 like  a person glue to the tv

 watching that soap to see the next scene

 i was paralize

 couldn't move to change things

as they went down

 i was suppose to be stronger than this

 i am not the one who should be here

 i knew better

 I'm angry at myself

 how could  I

 let this happen

 ruin everything inside of me

 or just about as i search for the hope

 i thought had died

 i realize

 it was you

who

 was killing the person inside of me

 the little girl

 looking for that love

 the love that  granted safety

 in the end i just felt fear

 fear of what you were going to make me do next

 fear of what i would do to not feel the pain

 you had to give to me, next

 Angry i'm not angry at you

 just leave me alone

 i'm angry at myself

 for letting things get to where they are

 I'm angry how could i

 I was the one who

 was helping others

 who went through this

 why couldn't i see the signs

 Where was my eyes at

 glue to the scene

 scared to moved

 praying to find forgiveness inside of myself

 for you for me

 forgiveness why

 is it so fleeting to forgive these things

 Could they not be any worst then

 things i could have committed

 NOOOOOOOO

never wanted any of this

 or any of these blockages

 like lock doors to my heart i can't

 find what it is inside of me

 to let Forgiveness  flow

through my veins

 forgiveness of myself

forgiveness of this world

 forgiveness for living

 So don't ask why am I angry

 just leave me alone

 at least till I can find my heart

 so I can forgive myself

 cause  only than will the anger subside

 i will forgive you

                             Lynn Higgs( Arnona Sharon)

Reviews

[Vyctm]

I am not that impressed with this piece of literature. It seems awkwardly done to me and the idea of it is fairly weak. I was never the fan of the free verse strusture so tht, of course, bothers me to an extent no other poem can. It also has no structure at all.