Secrets Secrets

about things we try to keep hidden

Secrets

Leave my secrets alone

they may make you cry

or worse

run and never talk to me

Secrets run deep

I will never tell

the pain the hurt

i promise to be quiet

than take the blame

for something

i didn't do

Maybe you will think

Yes somehow I cause it

the pain that runs so deep inside

everytime it subsidess

at least for a little while

A wave of all the anger

comes ashore on my mind

Pain continues worst than before

I Try to cover it

hurry hurry

before they see

what is your fault

only if you did this

or If you did that

it wouldn't have happen

yet they all say what is wrong with her

what is wrong with this

None can know

noone can know

i told someone once

they ran as fastr as they could

i might just accuse them

of such a lie

why cause no human could cause that

I mustn't have wanted it somehow

but how would i want something like this

where pain is a permanent scar

on my very soul

Never able to clean it off

when i think it over

and it cannot come back

no more pain

it always there to let me know

Something is not right with me

cause if i was right

i would know i wanted it

Secrets secrets

so you really want to know my secrets

isn't it better

to keep these buried

deep deep inside

where my spirit

has no light left

that way the pain is no longer visible

I can continue the masquearade

that all is well

love doesn't hurt no more

so please leave me my secrets

don't push me to share

i cannot stand to hear

how i wanted it

or worst that i cause the secret

that haunts my very existence

one day one day i may be able to

bring the darkness into the light

and not feel the despair or fear

of being isolated or left alone

to ponder why it is if i cause this

i hurt so bad when i remember it

if i wanted this than

what does it say about me

am i that bad that

i want this pain

no no more

no more

secrets secrets

i will keep my secrets inside of me

at least these

cause if i lost one more person

cause of these things

somehow i allow to occurred

i just would not be able to hope

or live or love or trust

any huamn again

i would shut down forever

never able to open again

so please let me keep my secrets

or at least let me keep these secrets today

Lynn Higgs

Reviews

[Lonely Islander]

really don't know what to say...as a poem its really good but when it comes to the things it express...all i can say is that if telling a secret means losing somebody or causing more pain, than its better left unsaid :-):-):-D.