PIeces came together

Puzzle came together
Not all the pieces in place
but enough to remember
enough revealed to understand
not sure why i never put
the pieces in before
told I was evil
live a life separated from peers
heard how I seduce the men
ho2w i dragged people into sin
seductress at the age of what
two three maybe even one who knows
feeling like I was the other woman in my mom’s life
pushing my brain to the extreme
not comprehending why
my siblings didn;’t get to participate
always questioning
who was paying who for what reason
the experiments
the pushing I never  ask
why not you
why not do those ex[periments on you
no wonder my mother thought i was evil
I was the seductress leading people into the evil state
arggggggggg the picture came together
Things I was told
overactive imagination
wrong questions will get you killed
do you really want to know about the darkness
puzzle piecing together
the horrid of it all
who can I trust
who can I confide
how can I keep the people I can trust  protected
what do I do
Afraid of the other memories
Scared they will see the evil too
evil implanted in me
lashing out to suck them into
the world I was pushed in
now its all coming back
nowhere to go
to find the reasons
to get the solutions
to get the whole puzzle
I venture out alone
only alone can i be sure
I wont dragged people into the evilness
I was dragged into
I need to eradicate the seeds of darkness
planted in me
Yes I know about this and that
Yes I see now the overactive imaginations’

the memories that made no sense has real meaning
the pain being unleashed may be the final end to me
Scare yes of what 

the darkness in my mind will unveiled next
Scare people will see
Same thing those who planted the evil
that I am just the seductress
that may dragged you into the evil
that others planted in me
I need to get the seeds out
I need to remember it all
I need to walk this out on my own
find the scare little child
hiding from the evil
the darkness Planted inside
The pieces came together
or at least enough of them
to revealed the nefarious acts
unlocking memories of moments
long ago buried
moments that need to have the light
shine on them
 
pieces coming together
to put the rest of the picture together
explaining the reasons why 

youare the you
you were created to be
Just another scare soul searching 

to hide from the darkness
while looking for the light