Katch22

How sometimes when someone thinks they win is when they really lose.

It was on 2/18/12

I looked up in the air

I told myself

Let me just send her a text

I wasn’t expecting much

But I was hoping by now

She would be able to say something

Hey it was me she hurted more

In her mind I betrayed her

Thoughts in her own head

That went wondering without my consent

I didn’t have to speak to her for months

But she had it in her mind she would never speak to me again

It was her that belittled me to her friends

It was her that betrayed my trust in her

It was her that took me for granted

She just couldn’t see what she did wrong

And she pushed a kid away

He did nothing to her only respected her

Her pushing him away was how she felt about ME

Yet she had no clue her actions where hurting him deeply

But all she thought about was HERSELF

Every action she puts herself into

She thinks of herself and how it can benefit her

For years I knew her but I never truly knew her

I saw for who she truly was

But what she saw in me she couldn’t handle

She saw someone that loved her at the wrong f*****g time

She felt guilty for f*****g me

But there was no guilt when she hurt me by LYING

When her lies to others push me away

She did the same s**t to another girl just with a kid this time

That girl would be her rebound

Just when that young girl thought she changed the game with her

But instead it was just a show with a facebook audience instead

The real woman she aint over with watching from the background

Doing the same rebound

As soon as the real woman broke up with her toy

The girl my former friend was with got rid of her and her little boy

Lying and pushing people away

So she could be back with her woman again

Now everything happens for a reason

She thinks or its what her Head wants to believe

Her tag name is Katch22

Which means in her world

Even when you win…someone has to lose

Like Carl Thomas Sang

Im singing….I wish I never met at all

Yeah when she wants to take her time talking

Take her time Forgiving Me

Not once was she in my shoes

To feel the pain she put me through

Yet I forgave her

So i can live a better life for ME

But she will never be my friend again

In all of years and into eternity

 

my© Dyanna Pappalardo

           PoetiqueSoul Publishings 2012

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