confused fears

 fear,

such a self absorbed feeling

it holds you back from what you want

love

need

pushing you back inside yourself

 

i hate this fear

ive never felt it before

ive always felt invisible

always

i am so scared

i want to cry so much

but i cant

i want to be what i use to be

invisible

i need to hold it all back

 

i fixed my life

made it new

i stopped doing 

everything that was wrong

now i am scared

of what i use to be

 

when every

blackened corner

becomes

darker

something is wong

 

i am afraid

of

myself