Blood on Fire

I feel my blood on fire

This heat rising, coursing through my veins, aching

lost inside your lucid dream

breaking every law and  vow 

to press my lips and  taste your tears

Defiantly 

exposing your scars to the heat of my touch  

only to create new wounds

Already written in the cosmos

I will bleed for you 

you will ache for me

An infinite eternity 

bruised and unwanted was all they could give you

trying to claw their nails deep inside you

to cling to the hope that your sex was salvation

the scent of possession

invaded your dreams,

you awoke unsatiated, in countless beds

names escape meaning, their scent on your pillows

while something was dying, you poured it inside them

eager and awe struck was all they could give you

Then our worlds collided 

you felt me

moving inside you 

throbbing and pulsing and screaming your name

craving the sins you'd commit on my skin

tasting my anger, 

Calming

my tears

falling in moments raw with desire

This is the moment 

our souls flow together

Exposed 

Then 

finally forgiven

for the promises broken 

Left them crying and cursing you dead 

You never held them 

But

You held me and said 

they proclaim all from fickle hearts

stuttering feeble compliments in awed mobility

to shove, twist, yearn for anything inside

as they lay dying in the gathered hay 

eagerly trading their souls for one taste of ample skin

selling everything you need short for seconds of their bliss

yet nothing you gain in return for your scars

murmuring placation to the damned like angels clipped wings

falling always down into some dead fire of life

a turned cheek to their hollow screams, hollow hearts

that need only touch to ignite raging desires for more

never seeing your eyes as they wander into some place 

no one can see, only guess when your heart seems so far

and you count the days by an ancient clocks midnight toll

casting aside anything once hoped for in better days

tangled in a strangers sheets like climbing vines vile

choking out anything soft and pure as realization dawns

to find you dazed in some awkward field of dreams

consuming beating hearts in walls of sound 

rocking soft lost children inside some hall of pain

until it all stops frozen in time like icy hearts

and dead stares into foreign eyes so shivering and vast

the space between what they see and what you need

only some perfect solace to ease the atrophy of your soul

reaching out hands weakened by teaching spirit to the dead

hoping to grasp some known emotion to match the seething inside

to draw it inward into the chasm

darkly wanting to destroy anything beautiful

to mar the perfect to match the hatred inside

yet it never dies, only mutates into something that

scares you when the lights are turned off

all these terrible epiphanies blasting holes in their "i love yous"

blindly searching for the one who can meet your gaze

with steely nerves and pain ridden woes

yet so achingly beautiful as some distant sunrise

there we met a thousand years ago

walking hand in hand throughout these shallow years

your eyes beaming out truth like a lighthouse of soul

calling me softly to lean back with eyes closed

to make me ache, as you ache

and guide my sins into you, hoping for redemption

7/05/2005 

Collaboration with D.S.