Losing Hope

Written 8-12-07.

Last night I did not rest
For the pain pressing in my heart was too much to bear
The lack of understanding
And the longing for hope

I’m trapped inside these four walls with windows barred
By the blood stained hopes
And the dead dreams of the child I once was

The lack of sleep I now feel in my weary eyes
As I try to stand on my own two feet

So easily frightened by the shadows all around me
And I feel I’m drowning now
In these tear filled pages of my life

I’ve lost all sense of time running in circles around my past
While waiting on my future to make life worth living

Melancholy dripping words flooding from the diary of a suicidal teen
Onto these pages
They mix with my tears
Falling into place

Please don’t look to my weak eyes
For if you do
My disguise will fall to the black abyss in which my aspirations were lost

Dying here so long
I’m convinced nothing could be worse
Desperately waiting for what feels like an eternity
On the brighter tomorrow
That I’ve nearly lost all hope will ever come

Reviews

[Mystery Girl]

You can really feel the sadness expressed in this!

[fotini]

losing hope is one of the worst feelings....
it's a very nice poem!
good work!

[Liam Riley]

wow... breathless.. Good job. Try writing more then just poems. You'd be great, you have a very broad vocabulary and keen understanding of emotions

[Darcy]

whoa... that is good it IS the exact description of a suicidal teen. considering im one at times. it shows the hopelessness so well. but please don't give up on hope there is always a light of reason