Your smile...

Depressed and abused

Beaten and used

Though these years have been long

It hasn't always seemed so wrong

You used me as a tool

And stepped on me like a stool

And although you broke my soul

I shall live on to show

That I'm not the weakling you thought me to be

I remember the things you said the day I was born

"You're not worth it. I was expecting more."

You destroyed me, and cast me out

You didn't wait to see the things in store

Why can't my life have a meaning

Why can't I live up to your desires

Why can't you love my being

And not burn me with your fire

I haven't a reason to smile

It only makes things worse

And reminds me of the way 

You smiled down evilly upon my face

Still I loved you dearly

Even though you couldn't hear me

I said a prayer every night

Hoping someday we both might be free

I still remember your shadowy smile

That left a hole in my heart

The painful things that you did

And the important things that died within

Made me swear to never smile again...

Reviews

[APOORVA]

immensely beautifully expressed

[Tori Jones]

I'm glad you think so... Thanks for readin' it...

[WillaDanvers]

I love the expression in this. It does tell a very sad story, and unfortunately some people have to face this harsh reality. I like how in the 6th stanza it shows a little light of hope. A prayer for freedom, not only for self but also for the one that gave up a chance of love. This is amazing.

[Tori Jones]

Thank you....

[The Exiled Wolf]

It is painful to read this Tori...It is indeed a tough poem. It must be hard to deal with harsh family members, and deal with the feeling of betrayal, and put all of these feelings into a poem with perfect rhymes. But one day, if it ever comes to you, that your pain is the panacea to some other's pain, you will feel that the suffering is at least worth something - 'cause I've been through this experience recently.

P.S. one typo in stanza 2: And stepped on me like a *stool*

[Tori Jones]

Oops, I'll fix that typo... And I'm sorry you had to experience something similar... It's not fun bein' kicked around....

[Hebe]

... very sad, I felt the pain....well writen. Happy Thanksgiving :)

[Tori Jones]

Thanks....