If Only You Knew...

If only you knew…

You say I deserve joy

But it is not true

For I have done too much wrong

If only you knew…

Every day I look back

And see my past

Full of terrible sins

For darkness always wins

You call me innocent

But I’m the complete opposite

If only you knew…

I wish I could tell you

But I am too ashamed

If only you knew…

Then maybe you would understand

Why I am not worthy

Of joy

But I can't tell you

For I am full of pain and worry…

Reviews

[Esther]

I feel these kind of things a lot but it's important to remember everyone deserves happiness and joy-- even you :) Learn from your mistakes and keep your chin up. I love your poems!

[Tori Jones]

Thank you, but after being alone for thirteen years of being alone and rejected I have lost all hope...For some people happiness isn't possible, and if you knew what I have done you wouldn't even talk to me...

[Woya]

I've done some pretty messed up things to but we are humans and humans screw up. It's hard to come to terms with what we do and we may not understand why we ever did something but it's important to know that with time things get better :)

[Tori Jones]

Well, I hope that you're having a nice life. You are a very kind person, I just wish I could be like you but I can't be forgiven ever. Besides my parents didn't care about me, they were abusive. If they didn't think I deserved to know what true love felt like, then maybe they were right to leave me. I don't deserve to be happy, but what really matters is how other people feel. If they are happy that's all I need to keep on going and press on, no matter how alone and depressed I am...

[Esther]

You don't have to be alone. If you need a friend I'm here for you!

[Tori Jones]

Thx...That's nice of you to say...

[Karmee]

If only you knew…
Every day I look back
And see my past
Full of terrible sins
For darkness always wins,

Really enjoyed this write a lot.
love the feelings, i know part of the pains here.
awesome writing.