SophieA Story by Pitbull1000The sound
of a door slamming. She had lain there for hours, knowing that it was coming: this,
the signal between her and him that her beating was imminent. She instantly sat
up on the bed and waited for the door to be thrown open, which it was. To her,
when he was in this state, the man looked more like a demon: eyebrows creasing
over his eyes, the mouth, revealing teeth clenched together. He stood, looking
at her, in the strange way that he had. ‘Damn it, Sophie,
I said no loud noises after ten o’clock, you hear me!’ There was
no sense in arguing, and he wouldn’t have bothered answering her, anyway. He
had that glazed look in his eye, almost as though he was in some sort of a
trance. She got out of the bed and got down on her knees, in her customary
position on the floor and waited for it, waited for the sound of the untying of
his belt from his paints. After the
first few blows, it somehow got easier. Though, something monstrous and
gigantic and well beyond the limits of her strength. The sound
of the strap hitting her back, pounded in her ears. After a while, the blows
stopped and she heard him panting, heaving at the effort. And then, as though
infuriated that she hadn’t completely collapsed, he left the room and slammed
the door shut. Sophie
finally collapsed and vomited on the floor. She lay there, looking at the
carpet, which was spinning with her head, just centimeters from her spew. She
was unable to clean it up. Her whole body throbbed. The sound of dull conversation
in another room and a light switching off. Crickets starting up again, outside
the house, in her ears, as though they themselves had been silenced by the
beating. After a while, she passed out. Dreams of
another word, a world without an evil step-father. A man she had never met
before embracing her " her biological father? " looking into her eyes and
telling her that everything was going to be alright. But even then, she
couldn’t be sure, for somehow, over every horizon there he was, the horrible
man that she lived with. Staring back at her, scowling, disapproving,
humiliating, and then the world went black and she was gone again, somewhere
else, somewhere without him, back to the velvet embrace of sleep. The sound
of the door opening, again. Her mother’s disapproving comments that she had
fallen asleep on the floor. ‘Sophie,
why are you asleep on the carpet, again?’ With every
word, Sophie became more and more angry and yet her mother’s words stifled the
anger, leaving lumps inside of her that would swell over time. She tried to
lift herself but the pain was unbearable this time. Lacerations on her back
would have been visible to anyone. Her mother said nothing, but simply left the
room. Sophie
managed to sit and then eventually, stand. She gingerly walked to her bedside
and sat on a chair and looked in the mirror, turned her back and saw a portion
of the deep welts that had formed on her back. At first it
horrified her, but now, she was getting used to it. She wondered if it would
ever heal, if there would be permanent scarring. She collected
her clothes and gingerly crept across the carpet floor and looked both ways
down the hallway, which was empty. She walked the carpet and made her way to
the bathroom and stepped inside, turned the taps on until the water was tepid,
then stepped inside. The
stinging sensation was incredible, and for a moment she thought that she would
pass out, again. After a while, she turned the taps off and got out and looked
at herself in the mirror and turned her back. Deep gashes appeared, looking
like a swollen, malformed tree. It
horrified her. She got dressed and walked back to her room and sat on the bed.
At least with the house this silent, it meant that they had both gone off to
work, which was a relief. She brushed
her teeth and got her things and walked down the stairs, made herself a piece
of toast and walked out into the day, locking the door behind her. It was a
bright, crisp day, but it did nothing to alleviate the pain. She kept walking
and, after a while, came to the bus stop. Other kids arrived and sat next to
her, stood around, waiting; one, another year eleven girl, stood and looked at
her. ‘Looks like
hunchback’s arrived early.’ Sophie
looked at the girl, who stared straight back at her. ‘What’s
wrong, hunchback, you got a crush?’ said the girl. Sophie
looked at her and didn’t know what to say, and stayed silent. And the girl took
a step closer, leaned in, so as to be almost touching her. ‘You know
what, hunchback, I wouldn’t go out with you, anyway.’ A small
crowd had started to surround them, as though, waiting for a fight, and just at
that moment the bus arrived. They pushed
and shoved each other and finally formed a line and Sophie found her place and
waited. Her back stung but she ignored it, mostly elated to be away from the
horror of the house. She got on and paid her ticket and walked the aisle, found
a seat by the window. A bright sunny day. The bus started and the road moved
and the houses with it and she allowed herself a moment to dream of being
somewhere else, away from him and her mother, somewhere where she could forget
everyone and everything. Her back continued to throb but she ignored it and
then suddenly came up with the plan to simply run away. Somewhere, anywhere,
just away. By the time
the bus had made it to the school, the weather had changed. Black clouds
hovered on the horizon like giant chasms, threatening to bar her way, but she
didn’t care, she would stick to her plan, even if it killed her. In fact, she
didn’t mind if it did: even death would be better than surviving another night
in that god-forsaken house with her mother and that man. The bus stopped and
she made her way out and got off and looked up at the sky that was getting
darker all the time. That day,
for Sophie, classes were a dream, and there wasn’t any of the problems that she
usually faced, that were spawned from her own jealousy and envy of the other
children. She listened to her teachers, and, for once, did everything that they
asked. Before she knew it, school was over and she was standing on the steps,
outside the front of the school, looking up at the sky, and wondering all of a
sudden, whether or not she actually had ‘the balls’ to go through with it, then
realized that she had to, that, actually, it was a matter of life and death. The first
thing that struck her was that she had no money, but that was nothing new. Most
days she would come to school with nothing at all and the ladies at the tuck
shop would take pity on her and give her the left-overs. But now she had to
figure out a way to get out of town, and it suddenly dawned on her that she
could do anything, go anywhere. And so that is what she did. One foot after the
other, she started walking. The sky got
darker and the clouds were huge on the horizon. She walked and went further out
on the road. Cars passed her and the sky held out. She came to the suburbs and
deliberately walked in the opposite direction of her own house and kept
walking. A couple of the kids in the street recognized her. After a while she
came to the end of the town and actually passed a sign that said ‘Welcome to
Kansas’. She kept walking. Now, there was just the road that went off into the
distance. She knew that, after a while she was going to get hungry and cold.
Luckily, she had brought a jumper with her, in her bag, and so, she put it on
and kept walking. The sky
grew darker, and, after a while, it did get dark, and the only light was the
occasional car in the night, and she felt herself becoming tired. She stepped
off the road and lay down in the decline beside the road and looked up at the
sky and waited for sleep to come, the night sky fixed with a lattice of stars.
The ground was hard and she hoped that she wouldn’t get bitten by snakes or
spiders or rats or whatever else was out here. The sound of crickets, loud in
her ears, a car. She lay there and, after a while, slept, contented with the
fact that she would never have to see her parents, ever again, and it was
enough. The memory of him, plaguing her sleep, as always, like some cold
creeping thing that fed on her innards. The dawn
light woke her and she opened her eyes and looked around. The huge dark sky.
The gold band on the horizon. She got to her feet and looked around. It was the
furthest she’d ever been from where she lived. She started walking and felt
weak, realized that she couldn’t go on forever without getting something to eat
and drink. There was nothing left but to stick her thumb out in the hope that
someone would stop and pick her up. The sun
came up on the horizon and it soon became warm and then hot. A crow flew
through the sky and squawked and she suddenly wondered if she was going to die
out here. The day wore on and the midday sun came and she could feel herself
sweating and growing dizzy. It was then, just as she thought that she was going
to feint and die that a truck roared past and screeched its brakes and
stopped. She walked towards it and came
to it and looked up. The sound of music from up, deep inside the hull of the
truck. A voice, over the top, said ‘are you gonna get in, or what?’ She climbed
the stairs and got inside and was looking at a fat man, who looked at her for a
moment, and didn’t seem fazed, said, ‘you look like hell, kid,’ then started up
the truck and she sat and looked out the window and felt her stomach growl. Thick,
hairy arms, shifted through the gears, and appeared to put it into a cruise
setting. Looking at the road, he asked her if she as hungry, to which she
nodded. The man pulled out a stick of salami from a small freezer and handed it
to her, then told her to reach in and grab the soft drink, which she did. Salami and
coke never tasted so good. They drove on and he saw that she didn’t feel like
talking and so he turned the radio up a little and, after a while, feeling
safe, she fell into a deep sleep. Dreams of
her stepfather, and then the sweet relief that it was all over and she would
never have to see him again, came, and not for the rest of her life. When she
woke it was dark. She looked around and saw the fat man was driving. Lights beaming
down on the road. ‘Looks like
someone’s woken up.’ Said the fat man. She looked
back at him and didn’t know what to say, except that she was grateful beyond
recognition and very hungry. ‘’Do you
think that we could get something to eat?’ ‘Sure.’
Said the fat man. ‘We’ll pull into the next servo, get some grub, there.’ She looked
at him and saw that there was no malice in him and it somehow seemed amazing to
her. He pulled the truck into a service station and stopped it and turned the
engine off, opened the door and disappeared. She opened the cabin door and
climbed down the stairs and looked around at the night, at the road diner that
was lit up by fluorescent lights. They met on the road and to the diner, opened
glass doors and made their way to a table and sat. A woman in a uniform made
her way to the table and stood with a writing pad, looking down at him. ‘Well, Sam,
what’ll it be, this time?’ The fat man
looked up at her for a moment, then back down at the menu. ‘The usual,
thanks, Peg.’ Said the fat man. ‘And what
about you, young miss, what will you have?’ Sophie’s eyes
lit up at the prospect of a burger. ‘I’ll have
the burger, thanks, with chips and a coke.’ The
waitress turned and marched off and the fat man watched her longingly as she
walked away. Sophie looked at the man and was busting for the toilet and the
fat man looked at her and pointed to a door across the floor. She stood
and walked over to it and opened the door to a cubicle and pissed. An image of
her mother came to her and she suddenly wondered if she had done the wrong
thing, by leaving her with that horrible man, and was suddenly elated that she
was finally allowed to even think of him in that way. But she couldn’t go back.
That much she knew, for the next beating might actually kill her. And yet, she
suddenly felt sorry for her mother, for she knew that he would take it out on
her, and that, as a result, she may never see her again. But maybe she could
call from a payphone, and just hang up if he answered? At least to see if she
was still alive. She flushed
the toilet and came out of the cubicle and washed her hands. A woman was
looking at herself in the mirror and putting on bright red lipstick. The woman
smiled and Sophie smiled back and washed her hands and walked back out to the
restaurant and sat down opposite the fat man and saw that her burger had
arrived. She ate ravenously and they both ate in silence. After a while, the fat
man finished his meal and pushed the food away and looked at her. ‘Well, I
won’t ask any questions, though, God knows I probably should…firstly, you look
like hell and me picking you up is probably against the law, also. I reckon
you’re underage, which means that by rights I should probably turn you in.’ Sophie
looked at the fat man, terrified. ‘Please, Mr.
I got no-where else to go. And I can’t go back. I’d rather die than go back. ‘Yeah, I
thought so. I’ll tell you what I’m gonna do: I’ll let you off at the next town,
and that’s the best I can do. You’re on your own from then on. I’ve been
through too much to lose my license over a minor, and I reckon that they’d be
looking for you around about now. They would’ve called the police.’ She looked
at him hard but he dismissed her. ‘Come on,
then. I need to get some shut eye. I reckon that you do, too. Well, head off
again in the morning, and by then we’ll be in Dubbo. You’re on your own from
then on in.’ They got up
and the fat man paid, then took one last long look at the waitress and they
made their way back out into the night that was cold and she was suddenly
grateful for the fat man. He opened the cabin door from the inside and she
climbed up the steps and got in and it was warm. He took one last look at her
and turned out the cabin light and reclined the seat and she took one last look
at the diner that glowed in the night and fell back into sleep, herself. In her
dream, the old man was walloping her again. His head like an old glove, the
skin rotting on his shoulders, his eyes, white saucers. When she
woke, they were already on the road. The sun was out and it was warm.
Everywhere, the empty countryside. ‘Well,
looks like someone’s finally awake.’ Said the fat man. She looked at him and
wondered who he was and he looked back at her for a second. ‘We’ll be
coming into Dubbo in the next few minutes and that’s where our pathways have to
end, I’m afraid, little miss.’ She looked
back at him and felt sad that she would never see him again. Not many people in
the world were as kind to her as he was and for that she was sorry. It wasn’t
long before he was putting his foot on the break and the huge hulk was snorting
to a stop. She looked at him one last time and wondered how she was ever going
to make it, but something deep inside of her told her that everything was going
to be alright and the fat man’s smile seemed to confirm it. She thanked him one
last time and climbed down and looked around. An overcast
sky, as though a giant hand had shone a torch through a bulb. She looked around
and wondered what to make of everything, then started walking, as though for
the first time, and felt a heavy weight lifting from her shoulders, as though
there was a bolder inside of her that was slowly crumbling. Patches of
grass. A sidewalk. She looked around. Small houses. The road leading up the
town itself, that probably hadn’t changed in decades. But it was her town, now.
She kept
walking and wondered if the police would start looking for her. She might have
to change her appearance, but how? She realized that she was hungry and weak
and needed a place to lie down. But she
couldn’t just lie on the sidewalk. The neighbouhood steeped around her. People
walking past. Two school girls on their way home from school. Green uniforms
and shady hair. The unrelenting sky. She could
feel herself wilting. But there was nowhere to go, nowhere to be. Everywhere,
the sky and the houses and the neighbourhood and the school kids and the cars
going past, looking at her, and soon it all began to spin, and she looked
around and the grass and the pavement was heading straight at her, and then, it
all hit in the head, hard, and everything went black. * When she
woke, she saw a man’s face, looking down at her, a face she had never seen
before, yet somehow seemed familiar and that it was kind. She looked around and
saw that she was in a room that she had never been in before. A voice came from
deep inside of it, and it too seemed familiar. ‘Looks like
someone’s finally woken up.’ A man’s
voice. Deep and warm. She sat up and looked around at a foreign room. A family
stood at the other side of it, looking at her. ‘She seems,
ok. Maybe we should call the authorities, though, just to be on the safe side?’ ‘Maybe, yes.
I suppose we should call the police. Notify her family.’ Sophie,
looked at them, horrified. ‘No,
please, don’t! I’ll do anything, just, please don’t call them!’ The family
shrunk back and looked at each other. The man stepped forward and looked down
at her and she looked back at him. ‘Listen,
dear, are you in some sort of trouble?’ She looked
back at him and didn’t know what to say. ‘I’ll tell
you what, just get dressed and come downstairs and have something to eat and we’ll
talk about it.’ She looked it
him and the woman and girl standing in the doorway and then they left the room
and she heard them trod down the stairs in heavy steps as though they all wore
clogs and she got out of bed and found the bathroom, used the toilet and caught
the reflection of herself in the mirror, saw the face of a scared girl with
dark rings under her eyes. And then
the moment she had dreaded coming to life, as though everything were happening
in slow motion. She made it down the stairs and looked around at the room and
there he was, sitting at the table, as though it was the most normal thing in
the world, and she suddenly heard a high-pitched scream, then realized that it was
her own scream, and yet it seemed to be coming from somewhere else in the room.
Hands were
dragging her down to the ground and holding her down. Somehow she managed to
get away, if only for a moment, long enough to grab a knife from the table,
before they pulled her back down to the ground, and the old man’s face came at
her, like the jaws of death itself and she shoved the blade into the face, heard
the bone crack as the blade went through it, went through the eye and into the
brain, and the face came at her, smiling ghoulishly, as it did, like some giant
death mask. It came at
her and then finally collapsed on top of her and she could smell his scent that
was like an animals’, and then they finally pulled him off her. In the next moment,
heavy arms were lifting her up off her feet and she felt the heavy setting of
cuffs digging into her wrists. They led her out of the house into a police car,
opened the door and out her inside, and she sat and looked around at the day,
that seemed no different to any other, then drove her to the police station and
put her into a white cell. Days spent
alone, waiting for her processing, until the fate accompli that she would spend
a lifetime in jail. Inside her cell, there was a small window, and she would
stand on the bed and look out of it. A view of a lawn and a brick wall. Every
now and then, a tray with a meal would be pushed under the cell, and she would
go over and get it, lift it up and put it on the small table and eat.
Eventually, they put a tv inside the cell, and this, at least, gave her something
to do. One day,
the cell door was opened and a woman stepped in, and sat next to her on the bed
and told her that her mother had come to visit, and asked her whether or not,
she wanted to see her. Sophie looked at the woman and was at a loss. She
honestly didn’t know how she felt, but, being alone in here, without anyone was
its own hell. And so, despite herself, she relented. The woman silently nodded
and tapped a badge beside the door, and there was a buzzing sound and the door
was opened a she was gone. A moment
later, there was another buzzing sound and Sophie got a shock to see her mother
enter the room. They looked at each other for a moment and then her mother
averted her gaze and gingerly walked over to the chair and sat down. Sophie
caught her summoning herself, as though transforming into a different person,
her demeanor change, her body seemingly straightening, her head lift into a
position of command. She sat and looked at her daughter and said ‘hello, Sophie’,
and this, to Sophie, was possibly the most horrifying moment of all. ‘Hello,
Mum.’ There was a
silence and her mother stared at her, and finally, after a moment spoke. ‘Well,
looks like you’ve put yourself in a real pickle this time.’ Sophie
looked back at her and didn’t know what to say. After a while, her mother spoke
again. ‘Still, I
always knew that you were spiteful, but this takes the cake. Murdering your
dear father in cold blood. I don’t even know what to say, anymore, the hell
that you put us through. And, now, I have to mourn him, your beautiful father
who you have murdered…murdered!’ Sophie’s
mother covered her face, as though she was distraught with tears, and she
wondered where her real Dad was, and whether or not, he would somehow be able
to come to the rescue. After a while, her mother took her hands away from her
face and coldly looked back at her. ‘I’ll tell
you, this, Sophie, it’s going to take a while before I get over this one.’ By now, Sophie
had just about had enough. All she could do was sit and yell ‘guards!’, which
was the only option available. At his, her mother piped up and started screaming,
and with the two women screaming, a guard came in and took her mother away and
then there was a buzzing sound and the cell went silent again. Sophie took
her hands away from her ears and looked around. With her mother gone, suddenly,
somehow life seemed like worth living again, even though she was going to spend
the rest of it in jail. Still, she had her Jesus, and that, as far as she could
tell, was all that mattered. She stood on the bed again, and looked out the window,
at the sun going down over the brick wall, and felt something like calm washing
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Added on August 9, 2024 Last Updated on August 9, 2024 AuthorPitbull1000Melbourne, St Kilda, AustraliaAboutI'm a dude with a fascination with literature. Trying to improve my writing. All comments very much appreciated. more..Writing
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