Supernova

Have you ever experienced mixed feelings towards those you love,has success in life blinded you?

I hated him like
summer hates winter,
I longed for him like
summer seeks winter.

I felt so incomplete
and alone,
but it made me bold
and in front of the world,I shone.

In that brightness,
I had lost the darkness.
The darkness where
I had found myself.

I hated myself or
I hated him,I was
a case of
conflicting thoughts.

Without him I was
a supernova,
bound to become
a blackhole,

Of sadness...