Am I Perfect Now?!?! ( L )

impossible

Lay a black rose on my fingertips...
...it'll be as if you never existed...

It was a harmless scheme,
Just a little, enough to get her dizzy.
Before she knew it she didnt know where she was.
She stumbled along, not quite sure what to do.
Nothing made sense, why the walls seemed to be smiling.
He led her to the bedroom, told her to lie down.
She was too high, too drunk to understand.
Before she knew it was morning, she had no memory of her treason.
She had cheated on her boyfriend, though not for reason.
It was not her, but the drugs and beer.
He didnt understand, she knew it would be like this.
She knew it happened, didnt know how,
Just went through life, everythings normal.
She was hungry.
She had to pee.
She missed her period.
She took three tests-
Her fatal word haunted her.
Pregnant.
Her boyfriend broke up with her, too disgusted for words.
She couldnt tell her parents, she had so much shame.
She had to get rid of it, it would never have a name.
Forever scarred by a force she couldnt even remember,
She walks through life, undaunted yet still haunted.
All she has is friends, still by her side.
Even when the father and her lover had fled.
She had to live through it, pretend it never happened.
Just a mistake, never again to happen.
This is how she must live, through all the gossip and tears.
Who knows how she really feels.