feelings

Feelings Current mood: confused is this how i really feel,are my feelings really real? oh ,how i wish i was near you and wonder if you feel  it to.... should I tell you or should i wait...,Atleast untill i get my feelings straight. i wish  this wasn't so confusing always chooseing the wrong words to say.. Every  time i see your name on the computer display i smile inside and everything goes away..     i  always see people falling in love on the tv.. wishing that something like that  would happen to me... i know it's not real   but here's how i feel     I wanna be with you,witness every moment with you, i wouldn't of said it if it wasn't true. i know someone broke your heart , but i have loved you from the very start.... Wake up i'm all alone do you even care that im gone? or,Do you not see  how perfect everything could be? oh, How i wish i could make you see, make you see what you're doing to me.   Not being able to be  yours, it makes me feel like a rotting Corpse.... Not breathing, No  longer feeling.... i don't think my body will every finish healing from the pain you give me in my heart...... my whole world is  falling apart!..... But noone cares,noone ever does, noone ever will, i might as well go take an over dose of pills, then maybe someone will notice   that i'm gone.... and they'll see that i did it, i was pushed to the edge, then  they'll find  dead rotting corpse at Dawn....