Is it me?

I sit in my solitary solitude,
Knowing I've been condemned
By my fate, by my time, by my destiny-
By those things that I've been and I've done.

Where lies the hope I've been hoping for?
Has it died like my flame, like my friends?
Did it leave with my joy, with my smile?
Would it run like the life left inside of me?

Am I joyous? Or lifeless?
Does my pain make me heartless?
Whatever I am, I know that I'm hopeless.