He Doesn't Know

He sits there and thinks nobody wants him,
nobody's caring enough for him.
For what he does, what he thinks.

He wonders if he'll get another chance to show someone,
who he really is and not a shallow
drug using zombie who can't feel, who can't care.

His feelings have been lost and broken through the years of abuse and neglect
not only from his parents, but the friends he's let so close, who walk off without feeling
But he keeps letting them in, risking for the one to wake him up
from the horrible depressing dream
that's been his life for years.

No light.
no reason.
Just floating among faces, bottles, and smoke
Hes forgotten who he was,
no idea who he is now
just a name that he answers to is all he really knows.

He doesn't know how much a certain person cares though
he doesn't know she's been waiting for him all this time
to find his way back, to start his life again.
He's longing for a light to show him the way back
for him she doesn't shine bright enough at the end of the tunnel she's been waiting at
to give him enough light to see, see that she is there. To be a friend,
a lover, a wife, a listener, acquaintance...
Anything he needs.
But he doesn't know.

Reviews

[Bidu Ibrahim]

So relevant n so powerful!

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. i cannot begin to tell you how much i relate to these words ... as i wait for him ... and he doesn't know ...