The war within

I just found this is a peace I wrote a long time ago. Readying it, I’m thanking God that I’m not in that place anymore. It makes me now feel how lucky I'm to have left this place of desperateness.

The War within,,,

 

What if all around you doesn’t make sense anymore?

 

What if the peace once you thought you had was blown away and all what is left is a big hole of blackness?

 

 

 

Blackness:

Having fears, unfinished thoughts, unanswered questions…

 

A big hole of darkness; any rational person wouldn’t dare to enter. So how have I ended up in this hole! And how am I supposed to get out of it?

 

No guidance

No traces to follow

No lights

No clues

Nothingness

 

 

 

Fears:

Oh yeah!

Fears of the future, the present.

 

Am I happy?

Do I feel fulfilled?

Do I feel the urge for change?

Should I stay as I am, stuck in place?..

 

Unhappy, unfulfilled, wanting change, wanting to move forward into the unknown,

longing for change. The desire for which is as a burning fire within me. A fire I need to keep burning to give me the power to finally break through and out of the blackness.

 

 

Courage:

Do I have enough courage to change?

Yes, I think I do. But first I need to know and find my way.

 

Where am I?

Where should I go?

 

 

I am a young woman stuck in place, haunted by the fears of the past, unable to move away, with the desire to go far, beyond any place I have been before..

 

An unhappy woman longing for freedom, to break free.

But where should I go? What is the right way for me?

 

 

 

Being loved?

Yes I am.

But I need to get through this alone

All alone

I don’t want to be alone… yet why am I feeling so alone.

 

A woman so confused, so longing for the stability in life, longing to finally find the right way in life.

 

 

 

Should I be just happy with what I have?

Should I keep dreaming?

 

Questions with no answers..

Questions that must be answered.

 

A war that must be put to peace… soon.

Reviews

[emmajoy]

The worst war is the one that battles inside a person. Seems you've so many concerns, so many questions and fears.. yet, by writing about how your feel, you're on the way to seeing your strength and consequently a way out .. you say,
'Questions that must be answered. .. A war that must be put to peace… soon.'

Your format is well done, your words clear but passionate.. a very fine write. Thank you very much for sharing

[Unbrokenkiss]

This was certainly different, but not in a bad way. Just interesting. Nice work.

[Dai Edenburough]

This was a rather interesting poem? I like the way how you gave every word a short exerpt of whether you had it or not. The Blackness exerpt I was able to realte with the most. Keep up the writing!