Children Now Grown

written in 2011

 I am a Mother

mother of 3

3 boys

of all I surely miss

I was so young and thier father

well you can say in the least

did not want them

so I did what was needed to be done

I had to give them up

so they are no longer here with me in life

but with someone who cares

the oldest will be 18

and the youngest will be 14

I had to give them up for adoption

not knowing who,where,how,or why

or even if they will

one day find the real me

their birth mother

I will never forget

nor will I miss them more

each day that goes by

I sit and wonder

I ponder what each day will bring

will they even give me a chance

to be the mother that I should be

and want to be

even though I did everything to the best

and even put them first

like a knife stuck in my heart

my tears may never be heard

nor the smiles of children now grown

one almost a man

and one 16

and the other 14

my dear boys I still love dearly

you are in my thoughts every day

just know that your real mom loves each of you

and hopes for the day when she sees you all again

 

love always your mommy dear

Reviews

[Elvis Gilley]

You it no doubt takes great courage to face such an event. you should be first commended for this. Next I enjoyed the honesty I of this piece. I like the over all nature of the poem. It is powerful and a deep self expression. trust this they will one day come to realize the love they have for you. this is a masterful job of exploring your feelings and I enjoyed it. Keep up the good work.

[Pax]

wow, is this your story my friend? if it is... you need a *hug*... that must be a painful memory to give them away for thier better future... i know that some people might think that its not meant to be done... that you and your children must stick together through thick and thin.. but that will not always be the case... life can be so heavy... that its hard to feed three hungry mouths all the time that you job's salary is not even enough to feed two childrens alone, right... either way... I'm sure if you'll explain to them whatever the main reason why(much deeper than what i see) .... if you did it for a good purpose... I'm sure they will understand... this is a heartfelt write... well done!