To my boys

This is a poem for my sons though hard for a mother to do I had to give them up when they where little.

For Dustin Robert Colwill, Russel Earl Colwill, & Aaron Tylor Colwill

The hardest thing I've ever had to face was letting go of my children. The healing process had its challenging moments, but with time, and a lot of prayer, I managed to get through the same heartache that so many Mothers know all too well. Adoption isn't the end of your life, it isn't the end of the world, and it definitely isn't the end of your every happiness. It's actually the very beginning of receiving countless gifts and blessings that you never known before.

For My Children

I remember my pregnancy with you
I fell in love with your every move, and with the sound of your beating heart.
I held your precious body in my arms for the first time and took in your sweet, angelic presence.
Nothing could prepare me for what would lie ahead.
Nothing could prevent my heart from breaking, but it had to be done.
I tried to be strong, but my strength failed me.
I never knew it would be so difficult to write my own name.
I cried, and was grateful for all the precious memories you've given me.
It was a new beginning for you.
The healing was beginning for me.
Time went forward, I learned and grew as I slowly let go of you.
My heart was healed, my life was blessed and my prayers were answered.
Still, there's days when I cry.
I will never stop thinking about you.
Still I wonder about the person you are now, and the person you've yet to become.
I pray that you will always know of the love I have for you.
It's only through the grace of God that you were mine for a time.
He gave you to me, I lovingly obeyed his plans for you.

Poem 2

This child,

This child,

That I did bore,

For another family to cherish, love, and adore,

This child,

This child,

I was so blessed to carry under my heart,

They live there still never ever to part,

This child,

This child,

I did Name,

But when we reunited the name no longer was the same,

This child,

This child,

God in trusted me to give,

Her a family with two parents, and siblings and the right to LIVE!

This child,

This child,

Now knows her story of great LOVE,

For!

This child

This child,

Was definitely sent from Heaven ABOVE!!!

Author's Note

Just a love of a mother for her children now grown