No one heard the soft thud of sliced wood
against the mound of sawdust
as soft and clean smelling as a young oak
The saw screamed and gnashed its teeth
in overworked shrieks that hurt
my ears as I held your lunch and waited
It was noon and the sun had no qualms
with basting a man in his own sweat
and a child waiting with a father's lunch
had better things to do than listen
to deep shouting and saw screams
The water nearby flowed like a promise
Too cool to ignore, too bright with diamonds
the sun made in her spare time and scattered
on the tips of waves.
But I stayed, my hands staining the brown bag
darker with moisture and wishing
that you liked to swim or climb trees
or that you would see me and say
Run along now, because I would
with no more thought than any child should have
knowing grown ups ruled the world.
What I didn't know was how
you made my world
an easy place to play in, standing faithful
to family, while the saw and the sun sliced
your own dreams to sawdust.