This Is A Night
This is a night of long silences,
except for Peace Train playing
on my friend's guitar.
If I tell her she is a master,
she says, It is a Martin,
if I fall asleep because the night
is full of today's ghost parade,
or an exhaustion I had not anticipated
in a manic moment,
she throws a blanket over me
and goes away.
She will be back.
We all return to the familiar.
And if we fight sometimes, and rage,
with bitter misunderstandings,
it is only that it is easier
to be mad than sad.
Sad, being a soldier of regret
and could have been pictures,
so tiring and fetal
in his position.
Rage being nearer to life
and comforting,
the scream of being here, being now,
being drunk with the passion
of our own opinion.
Some days my head is an oven
of love and explosions
Some days I am the blizzard
of a hermit soul walking
quiet and barefoot in the snow.
Tonight I am sleeping on the couch
that has a hard back
Here, I can seal my sources
and hedge my bets.
And if I turn the other way,
it is just as well.
The way my arm swings out
into empty space,
until I am very open to falling.