Unrequited

ABC Poem

"Alliana", I shouted as I watched you walk along the edge

But you just walked away

Couldn't you hear me trying to stop you?

Did you even care?!

Every time I close my eyes I see your sad eyes before you hit the bottom

F**k, how could you have been so stupid?!

God, why couldn't I have seen the signs...

How do I live with the guilt of knowing I could have... should have...

I would have followed you to the ends of the Earth...

Just to be your friend... I was content

Knowing that only a handful of people would ever see your true smile

Lucky me...

Maybe if I would have told you how I felt, you wouldn't have felt alone...

Now it is too late

Only I will ever know that my heart is as broken as your body was

Please lie to me and tell me this is just a nightmare

Quiet the voices in my head!

Reality isn't that kind... 

Slowly the music starts and people start lining up to look at you, 

The piece of me that I will zoom through life without.

Uncoil this knot in my heart, how can I just say goodbye and walk away

Veto this guilt from my mind, please just give me a chance to make it right

What should I do?

X-ray my self worth and try to move on?

You would have laughed at such a childish fantasy...

"Zac," my mother grabs my hand "the feelings will lessen with time." I hope she is right.

Author's Note

So this was my first try at an ABC poem, it is a lot harder then I thought it would be :)