In All Life's Luminosities

Did you fear we’d suffer the norm, fear the same as I, our

time soon disappearing with the sound of the railway passing

these waves are never twice the same

Staring and straddling into death with the animals we've become

shouldering our fears in the unsure human element

in the cold and glorious loss

 

forging heaven from a lie we sell ourselves another

we cast the stars and merge into a quantum state of being,

but I am lost in this spinning wealth of wonderment

lost in this foolish damned accord

my words may alter little if with nothing I do not try 

for this is what I'll soon deserve

and making the day a fusion between right and wrong balances our lives into justed waste 

 

such little things from past will tilt with vague polarities

the dye we cast is not our own

the heart we pound dwells toward a single memory

the sounds we make from a distant dream, how can we protect these things

never seeing what we hear in the coming nightfall

what melts by day, melts the meaning to my life

whatever dismay cauterized

reopens here with just a single step

and though I know the ledgers from the angels

I now believe in the depth of their unending darkness

 

compelled toward solitude and home

I must stay the strength and cut

building a constant poverty that can

survive the worst through the wintered storm,

as I too,  fear this suffering,  the elusion of faith, or if not, than 

straying into night and drowning in all of one life’s luminosities…

Reviews

[barleygirl]

Sorry I haven't read you in a while . . . this winter kicked my a*s, so I was gone a while. It's great to be back reading you & trying to get to the bottom of your writing style. I found myself wondering if you read much of the poetry classics? Becuz this feels like it's written in a classical style, so I wondered how you became so practiced at writing this way. This kind of writing AND reading does not come naturally for me, so I have to really think about each line you present, seeing it as word crafting & also delving into the multi-layered meanings. Sometimes people say my writing is not an easy read (kinda complex) & I would say the same for this poem. It helps me feel less self-conscious about my own complexities (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

[Perdition]

Hey!! She's back,,you had a few writers worried out there..I somehow felt the winter was kicking more than a few of our asses and you would soon be haunting the pages again. I think I should try and simplify a little in the coming year..is true there is some depth to reaching the complexities but I like the way easy poems and deep meanings such as Oliver and Stafford take you for a walk into the normal and natural ponderings...with the mountains beckoning me weekly shouldn't be too hard to study out the hummingbirds and late night whippoorwill dreams of the Shenandoah mountains...Nice having you back and happy spring day and Hugs as well!!

[barleygirl]

Thanks for the welcome back. My rickety cabin was not built for snow country, here in the usually-mild California coastal mnts! I'm thawing out now, so the words are not suspended anymore. Thank you for worrying & caring & yet having confidence that things would turn out good. I can't believe you mentioned wanting to go for more simplicity becuz during my winter hiatus, I was doing some inner spiritual work & some of what came thru is the same conclusion. I need to simplify my writing & make it more about the message than the word crafting. We can grow together in similar ways in 2019! *smile*

[Perdition]

Challenge ACCEPTED!..lol. Sounds wonderful..but first wine..too long on the road and now am back home and need down time with a side of wine and maybe just a far off stare..I was never worried..the rest were but I could feel you out there shoveling..lol. Thanks for the challenge...off for the red Parisians.

[barleygirl]

I'm a tough b***h & I'm glad you knew that.

[lightsong]

I feared it, I feared it with every tear I shed and every other one I swallowed, I feared it until it controlled all my emotions, even making me totally numb at times, that fear of what I have soon, one day will not be mine, that I've never had it... and I will never, confusing what I say I know, but inside me these words I'm aware of, I've developed until I feel I'm no more a part of this world, and now I'm surprised to read this after sending You the message because I see a lot of what I've said within it, animals and nature are much better that humans sometimes, they are genuine and pure, and act to that instinct, solitude? how can I live without it?! Light?! it comes after passing the dark, and the more deepening the dark gets, the more brighter the light is, the more You are opened to Your awarenes, the more You are rising, the more You sufferer... the more -not- "human" You become... pain?! don't tell me, I know in this piece there is a one larger than this page... and I feel even physical pain and cracked bones, I know I'm speaking with confusion today here, so if You needed anything to be cleared just message me, to say at last the photo, PERFECT!

[Perdition]

Be at peace Light..this time of fear will soon be over so smile and take in every breath knowing you are "aware" ...so many are not...Thank you for your courage, grace and open soul as well as for this open review as well..believe me I understand and appreciate your honesty...Hugs!.

[lightsong]

luckily it's over, I was aware, I'm still aware, and there are things within me that I know they are there to be "forever".

You are a wonderful friend and human being, thank You✨

[Perdition]

Well I take probiotics don't ua know...lol. A pleasure to have you as friend as well and as always thank you for your generous and kind words.

[Gypsy Warrior Queen]

As we are ground into the dirt...will we never be what we are now...only a monotoned dust that lived demoned lives and never drank enough sky ....roaming and scratching out the truth in perverse longings of words...shall we too bleed back time....in sunsets, last breaths, and life luminosities...maybe ....maybe...just in this moment.

[Perdition]

Weird moon a coming..so getting it out before all hell hits the fan...and yes...just in this moment. Prepare!

[Gypsy Warrior Queen]

ah yes, something about a black blood moon? A moon of Leo? I read something, I dreamed something...everything is outta order!

[Perdition]

Got a lot of phone calls about that...think I'm going to spend that night on the moon and see what's what. No doubt it is effecting a lot of people that are completely unaware so things should get interesting, as they already have but more so over the next few days which is why I am mountain bound.