Metaphysically Thinking

Just because faith wavers, doesn't mean it isn't there.

Me and God....
me and God....
God, I find it difficult sometimes to understand;
where did it end for me,
I mean his shoulder for me to lean,
was him leaving a part of the plan?
My father that is....
wondering how he felt on the last day that he ever saw his kids;
them demons that did him in,
the salvation he found during he his twelve-year bid.
Bad things happen to good people, and at thirty I still don't understand....
why I have to face these hurdles if most people find me to be a good man.
Back-breaking gigs;
corporations I can't seem to incorporate myself with....
then I'm told about being lewd and lascivious and that's just part of my gift;
and a curse it seems,
I used to dream of climbing in between thick things with nice inseams;
but imagine being me....
me and my mama ain't never seen eye-to-eye on the same things.
And I can only recall one time that I prayed and it worked;
all the other times I prayed, things just got worse,
so I wonder....
Me and God....
Me and God....
I'd like to say I'm good, but I don't think I've got it all.
And yet, I still pray.

Reviews

[SM Davis]

OH MY GOD! WOW! Yes...what takes place between me and God is BETWEEN ME AND GOD. There are many things in my life that I have had to question in past and recent years. Many of those things are the fundamental teachings of my childhood. HOWEVER if there is one thing that I DO NOT QUESTION it's that GOD IS BIGGER THAN THAT whatever THAT is.

thank you for posting this. I think it's a message that many many need to hear.

[Silent Kim aka mizmetap..]

Nice expression of your personal relation to God. He's seems to always be off on the side just watching and we sometimes forget he's there.

[Rain]

I remember once, in prison, praying so hard, reading the bible every day. I prayed fpr parole...selfish I know, but I sincerely asked God to give me another chance. I talked to other inmates about God. When I was turned down, I shut the book. Since then I've opened and shut that book countless times. Looking back, I realized I deserved, and needed more time. "No" is also an answer to our prayers. Great write. Rain..

[J. Hampton]

We NEVER got it all......
and it's personal ...very personal.
From my corner I know for a fact...from my own life
God works out stuff ...
he walks us to the edge of our choices...
and we wobble in the wake of others ...
he hones gifts and moves suddenly
not everything goin on is overstood ...

one thing is for sure... God scribed stuff on your heart ....before you got here

goin in my faves

Blessssssssssssss

[Bubo]

Yes,i could see me in this.............questions I ask myself, and yes I still pray, but they get worse.
Wonderful, you are so so gifted at reaching in to me and making me think.

[Cece]

is dis between yo n god
or is dis between yo n father
whoz to get along wit parents

being lewd is being sexci can i
jst business giving business to yo
jst be there when you need me

neva do i pray n get wat i wan
but i continue to pray
perchance i getz a wiz

[TamiViolet]

I can relate to this one Michael, for I question many of the same things you describe. You have some exceptional one - liners here...

Bad things happen to good people, and at thirty I still don't understand...

corporations I can't seem to incorporate myself with...

And I can only recall one time that I prayed and it worked...

The concluding line is perfect...

I think we continue to pray because that's all we can do in a World where much is misunderstood. The work is profound, honest and beautifully conveyed.
xxx

[C.J.]

wow i like this poem because of your meaning in it and i think you wrote this perfictly.