I'm Afraid

What am I supposed to do?

You know I don't come to you for help

That often, it's important

I'm afraid.

I'm afraid that his voice is fading

I'm afraid that his face will soon be a distant memory

I'm afraid I might forget him entirely

I'm afraid that the painting upstairs will break

I'm afraid that I will stop drawing because he had to

I'm afraid that he died too young, even at 42

Maybe I was

I'm afraid the flowers on my bookshelf will wilt

I'm afraid my brother will forget me in college

I'm afraid my backpack is too heavy

I'm afraid I'll stop writing one day

I'm afraid they'll stop talking to me one day

I'm afraid she won't be here 

One day

See, I don't admit my fears that much

Spiders, the ocean, the dark

Maybe it's more abstract

The whole story is now that I look at it!

Isn't it true that fears have backstories?

With each flame, a spark has happened

Every fear has a cause, right?

What if I just don't realize the cause?

I never thought I was afraid of dying flowers before

Reviews

[poetgurl]

See, I don't admit my fears that much
Spiders, the ocean, the dark
Maybe it's more abstract
The whole story is now that I look at it!

I really enjoyed this part of your write. I can feel your words. Very nicely expressed.

[barleygirl]

Good job of expressing many heartfelt views of how this can feel. We all have many fears for many reasons & these fears described are so relatable. I love the way feelings are expressed in such an uninhibited way here . . . it's not that easy to do, as a writer. I think it's more important to have something impactful to say than to worry too much about specific details of the actual writing. Your message is spot-on.