Einsamkeit

In English it means-

I stand here,
Surrounded by people,
I'm supposed to call friends.

Yet,

Why is it?
That,
When I stand here,
I feel excluded.

Why is it?
That when I try to join the conversation,
You shut me out,
And don't listen?

Am I that annoying?
I'm I that irrelevant?

Or,

Do you just not like me?

I say I like to be alone,
I like the quiet.

When I truth,
I like the company of someone,
Who cares.

So why is it?
That when I stand with you,
That I get the feeling,
I'm useless,
I'm stupid,
That I'm not good enough to be in your presence!?

Why is it...
That,
My only way to express myself,
To show my emotions,
Is to get angry....

When was it... That I became so lonely....

In English.... It means: Loneliness.

Author's Note

Sorry guys... I just had to write this and get it off my chest

Reviews

[Larry John]

!!!! this is so beautiful and emotional and powerful and just- MaDDY. YOUR WRITING. IT'S AMAZING. You have a way of capturing emotions and situations perfectly. Seriously, this is so good and I loved reading it. I can really feel the sadness, the loneliness, the hurt... I definitely relate to this feeling, and it's so good to see it in words. Continue to write, dearest friend, because you weave pure magic into your work

[PenguinEmpiress]

AHHHHHHHH!! OMG THANK YOU MICHELLE!! THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! IM OFFICIALLY IN LOVE WITH THIS COMMENT!! THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!

[Ayushi Beura]

A beautiful piece of work... Great respect to your work...honesty seems purely in this poem. I love it

[PenguinEmpiress]

Thank you so much!! This is some of the pains I've been feeling lately with some people i hang out with. But thank you so much for this beautiful comment! It means a lot to me!

[Ayushi Beura]

Welcome :)

[Anastasia_Snow]

The emotion - all the sadness and the insecurity and the hurt - came through very strongly and well in this poem. I think many can relate to what you have described. Well done.
~Anastasia

[PenguinEmpiress]

Thank you so much. I'm a very insecure person, and I'm glad that others can relate to what I'm saying here.

[Anastasia_Snow]

I think that everyone is insecure at times, some more than others. But I think that this poem is one that everyone will be able to relate to at least some time in their life. (:

[PenguinEmpiress]

Hearing that makes you feel less alone... Well I do now, thanks :)

[Anastasia_Snow]

You're very welcome!