Now She Can Cry

Thanksgiving come and gone
no one else seemed to notice the empty chair
she was tempted to put a place setting there
but she didn't

And when she felt the tears welling
within her weary blue eyes
she bit her tongue

Gifts bought, wrapped placed beneath
the tree
those Christmas lights seemed to mock her
those that burned brightly but suddenly faded
just like...

She wanted to smash that tree
stomp those gifts. rip those twinkling lights
from those branches
scream at the top of her lungs
but she didn't

And when she felt those tears welt
she squeezed her eyes so tightly closed
everything stayed black for a moment when she opened them -
bit her tongue till she tasted blood -
silent

Fireworks, champagne, a toast to the old
a toast to the new
10-9-8-7-6-5-4-3-2-1
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
smiling faces, kisses all around

She wanted to, could have dampened those fireworks
salted the champagne with her pent up tears
tore those kisses from lips with her nails
but she didn't

New Years Day -
Christmas turkey gone
only a carcass
one lone piece of soggy pumpkin pie
tree down
people resting

She sits in the bedroom that smells so familiar
still after all this time
from the velvet box,
takes out the lock of hair

Touches gently
smells, feels, holds to her heart
memories wash over her weary body

She lays her head on the pillow
where she last lay
tears flow like rapids
unsung screams burn her throat
tears soak the pillow

Now ...she can cry

Author's Note

First holidays without loved ones .....
I wish you all a Happy New Year , will be around in awhile to read ...
Peace

Reviews

[Magdelena]

OH this was so sad. I so remember a time when I too felt like this. many a time went by while I sat by myself within a crowd and felt so alone. tears fell when the darkness came, and this described exactly what it felt like.. Your imagery was perfection, your words became mine.. Bravo!

Mags xx

[stellasautelle]

Very emotional & sad.. very well written. Excellent work :)

[KATHY SUE SILLS]

This was so sad! It is so hard to keep going when love ones has left us ,at holidays it's extreemly hard! you brought that out in your poem, very well written!

[Linear]

Moving poem of a love forever lost to a night without end. loved the way you took the reader along through time, a once special time, and it's those special times we miss those ones so much, the empty place setting at the table, the ache in your heart so hard to bear, the tears well up. see what you did, you made this old man cry, good emotional poetry

[Tomás Ó C..]

Bereavement leaves such a hole in lives... well expressed here...

[Greg Skura]

It is very hard when we lose the ones we love especially at those times in which we celebrate life. My heart goes out to you! Thank you for sharing this very touching poem!

[Tina Kline]

This is very emotional, very tragic. I know those painful feelings like so many do. This is a fantastic write. It brought tears to my eyes.

[ice]

Is it ok for a man to get damp eyes in here?
I hope so, because it made me have them anyway..
Well done, Chloe
Nameste
ice

[r]

Wow. I was shocked by this piece. And I'm not sure what to say besides this was very powerful - so powerful and emotional. I love it. (:

[deeps]

WOW i sure can relate to part of this.
This is so sad really. Written and expressed so well,