Me Myself My Thoughts and Vivaldi

You tend to come across someone who opens your eyes

They often are immature and not ready for the big world and all it's responsibilities

But they show you what you either missed out on or that they can be very strong with their opinions on not wanting certain things in their lives

I then realize that If I was that sure at that age then I would most likely not be where I am now

Not sure id take the same route and not trying it out

Maybe that's the difference is that I was willing to give it a shot and not ever really saying no unless I knew for certain that I really didn't want any interaction with it

Well I met someone who I really listened to who I hadn't been able to listen to for awhile

Its someone I like listening to when I come across them

There is a beauty in hearing someone speak and how their mind works when they aren't talking to you directly

Its a lot easier to pick up on someone that way

Well I became mentally aroused over how they spoke and how they shared themselves so openly

It was also a mixed feeling of passion over the way it interested me

I then remembered that even though they did that to me that it isn't worth any interaction only because I've learned that jumping on every inkling of that feeling is not ever the solution

But then I also wonder if it is time for me to find that someone that really moves my mind and really makes me crave them just to speak to me

For as of now I don't have that

I like the silence and my thoughts and Vivaldi

The hardest thing in my life is that I always want to jump

I always have a mental battle with my desires and my temptations and it is only now that I am much older that I can fight them

Its so easy for me to slip but its now harder to deal with the outcome

I've shared too much and gone deeper then I ever do

I am in trouble with my own self

I am trouble with my own self

I say adu to you my fellow reader

I say please have no judgement in my words I share

I ask for you to take it and remember your incident and your struggles as well

Until I come back, I say farewell

 

 

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