VeronicaA Story by Patrick RamseyTom reminisces about a previous relationship.Tom began to relax as
the plane jetted higher and higher above the clouds. The morning had been
fretful, him almost missing his flight, but now he was beginning to relax,
having loaded onto the plane in the nick of time.
A voice announced on
the speaker that passengers could begin using electronic devices, and he
remembered with some slight irritation that, in his hurry, he had not charged
his laptop. Instead, he went to the gallery on his smartphone and
scrolled through his photos searching for pictures of Veronica he had taken
several years back. As he did so, his heart pumped just a little faster
and hormones surged just a little more quickly, his body reacting as it always
did when his mind went to her.
Though he had always
felt a strong connection with her, in the end she had left him for another,
just as most of the others had. But he’d resisted the urge to feel
resentful, and had kept up with her on Facebook, letting her have her space,
thinking that she might miss their connection, waiting, hoping, and even
praying for a sign of her affection.
Friends had said that
he was being pathetic, and still sometimes did, but he couldn’t help it.
When he knew she was on the other end of the phone, the mere thought made his
heart leap for joy. When she needed him, he knew he would always
come. He still loved her.
Tom’s reminiscing was
interrupted by the stewardess getting drinks for the passengers. “Would you like anything?” She looked at him expectantly, having just
placed a miniature bottle of jack and a clear plastic cup of coke filled with
ice on the tray of a nearby passenger.
“Coke, please,” he
answered her, thinking that he would splurge a little during the flight instead
of drinking diet. The woman wrote it
down and looked at the others beside him, but they appeared to be napping.
She emptied the
remainder of the last coke and opened a new one. Tom gingerly took the cup from her hand and
raised it to his mouth, enjoying the burn in the back of his throat as he
sipped on the mixture. He downed most of
it quickly, then felt moisture on his body.
He wondered if it was because of his mishap with the flight, or whether
he was really nervous to see her again.
He went back to the
gallery and found other pics. He was
smiling and she was nuzzled against him.
This was one of his favorites because it reminded him that they were
happy once. Not perfect by any means,
but happy nonetheless!
He’d loved her deeply,
even doted on her, and tried to give her what she wanted. Tom was a conflict avoider, but so was she,
so they rarely got into fights. If she
was really upset, she would let him know she was unhappy, but usually her
method of displaying annoyance was just being standoffish. He really preferred that, because conflict
made him nervous, and when he thought she was really upset with him, he had
panic attacks.
This backfired, he
knew, because standoffishness turned to restlessness. Often she would give him affection, touching
him and giving him signs that she also wanted to be touched, but when she
became bored or angry, he felt the cold shoulder.
At its worst,
Veronica’s passive behavior resulted in her not coming home. If he’d wondered about his smothering her
with a need for attention, he’d stopped wondering at that point. She’d withdrawn for days without any kind of
communication, and whereas most people would declare her missing, he’d known
that it was about her being unhappy with him, and at that point he’d refused to
chase after her, feeling humiliated.
Besides, he knew chasing would merely drive her away further. He had to give her space.
When she came home, he
was more angry than any time in memory, and for once confronted her about her
behavior, She’d looked at him with eyes
that said, “Do I look like I give a s**t?” and proceeded to act as if her
absence was not a big deal. He’d
pleaded with her that their relationship was unfair, but she gave him very
little response, other than nuzzling up to him, which always disarmed him.
Tom had known at that
moment that he was beaten. She had the
control in their relationship, but he was hopelessly devoted to her, a
slave.
For most of the
flight, he dwelt in regrets about the past, but forced those out of his mind as
the plane landed. Scrolling again
through the pics, he flashed a pic to the woman beside him, sitting by a girl
to her right. “I’m going to see my
Veronica!!” The woman looked at the pic,
furrowed her brown in puzzlement, but then smiled at him politely and remarked,
“She’s precious!” Tom beamed back, and the
passengers began to leave.
He waited at baggage
claim for a few minutes, then headed to the front of the airport, his heart
picking up speed once again. Outside he
saw the red SUV and opened the door to a petite woman with blonde hair smiling
at him warmly.
“Hi! How was your flight?” she asked.
“Fine! Fine!
Couldn’t wait to get here!” he
answered.
“Well, you’re a
life-saver! I fly out this afternoon,
and I couldn’t leave her for a whole week!”
He could tell she was grateful.
“Not a problem! I have family to visit anyway,” he lied.
“I’ll take good care of her. Do you mind
if I see her for a moment?”
The woman smiled
afresh. “Knock yourself out!” Her eyes
motioned to the back seat, where Tom noticed a suitcase on one side of the car
and cage adjacent.
He opened the back
door, sat by the cage and opened it, reaching for the cat. She stared at him as he held her up to him,
then nuzzled her face against his. He
felt a purr and his heart leapt.
“I think she’s missed
ya!” © 2017 Patrick Ramsey |
StatsAuthorPatrick RamseyMidland, TXAboutI'm a father, significant other, school counselor and private practice therapist. On the side, I'm an advocate for those in need and a provocateur against the status quo. Writing is a strong p.. more..Writing
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