Forgive Me If You Can But Not If You Should

These thoughts running wild once again through my mortal mind

Im scared i must admit
Scared of giving my all in fear things will turn out like before
Scared of looking like a lovesick fool if i do
How long until you're only a memory?
Will we actually make it until the end this time?
Why did we end before? Though i already know the answer it feels as if somethings were a lie
Tears rolling down my face slowly, crashing onto my screen as i question everything in fear, in sadness, in reminiscence
Forgive me if you can but not if you should
Im terrified of being lead on to a figment of my imagination
Though i know you are not like this, alas past experiences will always haunt me
Why must i feel like this
Youve given me so much reassurance yet im still like this
My stomach beginning to do gymnastics
For even though we've been through it before, im scared that by asking these youll leave
Forgive me if you can but not if you should

Author's Note

Leave a review! I hope you enjoy reading this and hopefully some of you can relate because in a world full of people i do happen to feel alone at times