Every Bubble Pops

This is a brief recap of my recent heartbreak. It's written in the form of a poetic letter to the one I loved.

Dear S,

Why

Do I spend hours awake 

Tossing and turning in my bed

Imagining various scenarios with you?

Why

Do I dream of the day

You'd tell me you feel the same way?

Why

Can't I sleep at night?

You're the first thing that comes to mind

Every night before I lay down 

And even after I open my eyes 

I'm tired

Of this feeling

Hopelessly dreaming 

I had a dream where you came to me

And confessed, but it was only a dream

Waking up, I felt it was so real

And undeniably hurtful to get out of bed

I wanted to lay back down

Close my eyes and see you again 

To touch your cheek, lean in close

And gently press my lips against yours 

My dreams are the only way

We'd ever be together 

But it's not enough 

Just dreaming hopelessly 

I told you how I felt 

You didn't feel the same 

So I cried, and I cried

For weeks on end 

Months passed by

And yet you still crossed my mind

Before I went to sleep, after I woke up, 

While I sat at the dining table

To enjoy my daily cereal 

Even when I showered, I cried

Thinking about what could have been

Dreaming again, foolish fantasies of romance 

That would never live past my awakening each day

Bubbles are beautiful things 

That fly freely, transparent to the world

But even the most beautiful bubbles pop 

Just as my dreams of you died away with time

My love grew into hopeless reminiscence 

Of the days we spoke fondly to one another 

My dreams floated all around innocently 

Like the bubbles blown from a child's wand 

But bubbles aren't as clean as 

The soap solution they're born from 

They're tainted specks of glittering dreams 

That fly in the air as shells 

Mirrored shells that hide insecurities 

Even through transparency 

I could not see the flaws

That would have blossomed 

If our love had grown

But it stung when the bubbles

Popped, splashing the reality 

In my naive eyes 

Sincerely, 

Panda

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[sinNsincerity]

Oh how I know and dread this feeling so much. Just the worst!!!