My Novel LifeA Poem by John Alexander McFadyenWhere we are today is full of memories often long forgotten.My
Novel Life Swans in dog collars, feathers turned black from the oil spills of too many sins, herded me into my youth; they had me making incense infused incantations. But the sewer rats of Glasgow, with their blades and skinhead cuts, dancing to A Clockwork Orange and slashing the faces of the Celtic faithful, made me abandon belief. I saw the insincerity of worship too. So many who were Christian but only on Sunday, hollow souls of wax. I learned disappointment, resentment and anger. And that anger has stayed, haunted my anxiety, left me weak, as the blood of trust and childhood, fairytale hope, seeped from my veins. Nineteen-eighty-four came and went and I was never a Swallow or an Amazon. More Crusoe, abandoned on an island bereft of reason, starved of meaning and searching for any passing ship that would take me home, away from the damned flies. Those damned flies! The unrest, the social collapse of civilisation. And so I yearned for Simon's serene open space full of aromatic bushes and flowers, until he died, a beast. I longed to end Piggy's pain, and I fell with him to the sand where a long sleep awaited. When I awoke on the gurney the world was empty, apart from the blind and of course John Wyndham's killer plants. I tried so hard to climb the Matterhorn to rise above the clouds but the dark deceit of Maclean's Ice Station froze my heart. Until I washed up on Chesil Beach thinking love and romance were real. But McEwan wouldn't let me believe as he wrung out the dirty laundry. So decades of sinking and sinking again, and trying to squeeze the sponge dry of transgressions have left their mark, and now I still live in the shadow of the crow, and Black Dogs make me fearful.
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12 Reviews Added on July 14, 2017 Last Updated on July 15, 2017 AuthorJohn Alexander McFadyenBrixworth, England, United KingdomAboutWell, have a long and complicated story and started it as an autobiography on Bebo but got writer's block/memory fogging. People liked it though and kept asking for the next chapter! fools.. more..Writing
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