you are enough for yourself, just like you were always enough for me

i feel less alone than before

my own reflection keeping me company on days you are not here

i used to be afraid of being alone

afraid of own eyes

my own voice

my own mind

i used to sit in agony while my blood boiled away any sanity left

but now i flow down the river of my veins and when your ready

ill take you too

its hard to be the one whose healing

to be the one who stays

its hard to be the one who doesnt need anyone

to be free from my own chains

free from the ones i said you gave me

love is funny isnt it

how it changes and grows like the trees in the seasons

when one day im crying at the idea of not being enough for you to stay

and then realizing im at peace if you leave 

loving you has taught me that love is more than a feeling

its a choice between people to find the good in each other

to let each other trip and fall

so they learn to catch themselves

and watching you stumble with big glass eyes

makes my heart want to run to you

save you

but you have to learn to do this for yourself

the same way i did 

and i will love you through it 

i will love you through it

i will love you through it

you and i chose each other

separate lives going separate journeys and choosing to explore it together

how is that possible

how it any of it possible

but now your learning to wipe your own tears

because my hand cramped from to many years of doing it for you

and it hurts to think we dont need each other like we used to 

but its healing to know we chose each other anyway

i love you

my angel

with your broken wings 

youll learn to mend

and ill be watching

holding your hand

I am not your savior like i thought

and you are not mine

we came together to show each other what we looked for in each other was in ourselves

all along

buried under years of pain

buried under loveless decades

but we love each other so much we let the seeds that ay dormant grow

but its up to you to water them

to keep whem all alive

my job is just to love you

and love myself first

and i feel less alone then before

knowing i dont have to chase you

knowing your right there

trying

trying for me

trying for you

im not pushing you away because i hate you

im making you do it to learn

to learn to be independent from me

to be free from your family

you are a flightless bird who only wants to travel the skies 

and i know you can

i want you to

i want you to want to

and so ill let you fall

and fail

and fail

because its not my job to save you

but i will love you

my angel

oh how i will love you

Author's Note

ignore grammar, read like spoken word