I Am Alive

a discovery. a realization. a message. and even though those who read this know its messy, and sense its disorganized, i hope they dont care. art is messy. life is messy, and i, my dear, am a mess.

It took me 18 years to feel

to feel the wind flush against my cheeks

to know the taste of salt that lingers on my tongue from the sea

i never believed freedom was achievable

until i watched a hawk dance through the clouds

until i  gazed into the night sky and counted the stars

happiness was something unimaginable

but i sense it in the back of the jeep with my friends

but i see it when my little brother discovers something new

this life that is full of such enrichment

this life that is full of such wonder

is a life i never thought possible

is a life i never believed existed

it took me 18 years to understand

to understand that feeling is a decision

to understand that freedom is a choice

to understand that happiness is real

i never believed that life was meant for me

and yet

18 years later

i sit on my disheveled, unmade bed

typing a mismatched poem, to people who don't care

and i realize, for the first time that 

i 

am

alive

Reviews

[Sydmsch]

Beautiful ..... I'm so proud of you for persevering

[danielle.]

Awesome in it's honesty. Wise and empowered too. I think you will find that many here do care, though. Well written x

[MoonChild]

A beautiful mess, thank you for sharing

[AiH]

thank you for reviewing!