Infected by you

Loving someone even when you don't want to

As if someone kin died,
Feels like a heavy loss
Or a scar from a bullet wound
To be specific like a flesh eating infection,
There's no escape,
There's only patience to hold on,
To stop looking for you in crowds,
To stop sensing your natural scent
In bottled perfumes,
To stop writing letters and never sending them.
The cure is only patience,
To die all at once
From all the poison
Running in every vein of my body,
The more attempts of neutralization
The voracious the after effect.
It only augments,
Makes you go down on your knees
Crushes your bone
Stops your heart
Until there's nothing left but to observe
How every breath takes your name
Someday it screams,
Someday it whispers,
Someday it growls
But it never stops
As if a disobedient pony
Just wouldn't stop running
Untamed yet innocent.
There's no way of weighting it out
Or looking for a blanket
Because I will burn,
In heat
In cold
In love
In horror
Coz I'm infected by you.