Love or Cocaine Addiction

This poem shows the yearning to reunite after the seperation of one true love and the pain of not being able to move on even after a long time.

The end of September
Nights still weren't cold
I still were in my senses.
Then I found you
In white loose powder.
I took a small bit
Felt nothing.
Nights kept passing
I started snorting more,
The euphoria would keep me up
All day and all night.
I would blinklessly look at joy
My heart used to flood
Which previously was in drought.
Snorting coke became a holy project
Looking for coke became religion.
My burnt skin started healing
Under the sweet cold white snow
Every bit of my sorrow became
Big chunk of happiness.
I forgot if I were ever agonized.
Then winter came
The surge of white powder
Became insignificant like drizzles in Monsoon.
I wanted to snort a whole bunch of it
Feel the flood in my heart
But I felt rain from my eyes.
I threw the white powder away
Yet couldn't threw my addiction.
Now I feel pain
In every bone
In every muscle
In every vein
The flashes of the ecstasy
Keeps me up all night
Accompany me in my chores.
I feel like butchering my senses
Plucking out my eyes
Tearing down my flesh
Because they are driving me insane.
Soon 365 days will be over
Even though my addiction is intense
Pushing me to the edge of sanity.
I want this to stop
Wrap myself with white powder
Overdose as if there's no death.
It will be 365 days
And my withdrawal is running over me
I'm left with my battered body
Dragging it to the graveyard
Of our unfinished story.

Reviews

[John the Baptist]

Withdrawal is painful with any addiction, but this offering shows graphically what stopping an entrenched cocaine addiction is like. Very painful to read. May peace come to you soon.

[Parsa]

Yeahhhh withdrawal from loving somebody or not being able to move on inflicts the same kind of pain which we do not talk about much,that's why this livid picturesque is used her to make everyone understand the turmoil one goes through this time.

[wordman]

and i wish you a happy deliverance

[Parsa]

Thankssss🧡

[wordman]

you`re welcome