Some people just don't understand

Some people just don't understand;
How you can be in a room full of people, yet feel so utterly alone,
So cold not even the heat of a Summer Sun could warm you,
The walls you've built up around yourself, closing off the world,
Nobody can get in and you can't get yourself out,

The only things that help;
Music, poetry, reading, writing,
Those things are such a life saver, that is not an understatement,
Music, poetry and cannabis saved my life, for now at least,

I've been to the point of being completely numb to anything, everything,
The thought of suicide never left my mind, only when I would sleep I was comforted,
I would never remember my dreams, I had a small dose of death,
Darkness, only darkness when I slumber,
It is still that way, although I'll remember a dream from time to time,

The positives coming from all of this?
If I ever have a child, and they try to tell me they are feeling this way,

I will do everything I can to ensure they don't have to,
I know what it's like, I've been to that world,
I hope nobody ever knows this,

Don't victimize yourself if you have a loved one that is depressed and have disconnected themselves from life,
Some people just don't know how to deal with things so their body and mind turn off and they go on autopilot,

I know, not feeling the love from that person might hurt, but instead of feeling hurt, show them love, they need it,

Depression is a feeling you can not explain in words, only in feelings and emotions,
Very rarely will someone describe my depression so closely, I can only imagine they've been through the same,
It's like an alien world most haven't seen or heard of until they crash land there,

It's a feeling that some people just don't understand,
Don't pretend to understand if you don't, that's a slap in the face,
It's okay to not to be able to understand, it's a great thing actually,
Just show that person love and try your best to let them feel it,
They might not feel it now, tomorrow, next week or next year,

But they will notice your efforts at some point, and they will be very grateful for your attempts,
They might not show it, they might now voice it, but they are on the inside, no matter what they say,
Depression turns you into everything that you're not,
It steals your sociability and turns you into a recluse,

You can't control it, it's a storm that you have to let pass,

Many things can cause a person to become depressed, don't ever tell them it's a dumb reason, or that other have it worst, that only makes their depression that much worst, because people just don't understand,

Some people just don't understand what this world is like,